Monday bloody monday
So, Im nervous.
I should find out about the job tomorrow and im scared about how much I want it.
Its a good sign that the Interview went for 1 hour and then I was shown around the office.
That's a good sign right?
If I was them I would hire me, I had all the experience they wanted, and we got along well.
It just depends on the other applicants then. Im worried....
Im a bit drunk at the moment. Its Anthonys birthday today, and we went out to lunch with his/my family.
I bottle of wine + lunch with rellies = drunk leah.
Its such a good feeling, the possibility that I could only have 4 days left at my job, it makes me so satisfied.
I think I wouldnt even mind being unemployed for a week or two if it just means I am out of there.
Its hard to explain how bad it is, but it is just not good for my sense of self. I am getting lost these, its so mind numbing and I find myself losing braincells everyday. I need something that makes me think, something that doesnt treat me like I am worthless. Seriously I could fucking run the place, but do you think they would pay/appreciate my worth. Nope. Okay, I better stop ranting, there is no point now, its almost over.
I want my house to be built. Its so close to starting it hurts, our slab should be down by July now, which is a couple of months over what was initially expected meaning we actually wont be in before Christmas now :( It would have been so nice to be in there for a couple of months before the wedding, but it looks like now it will be about one if we are lucky. Oh well, atleast it will be ours. Our house, our master bedroom, our bills .... eep.
Anthony is sleeping on the couch, beautiful boy, i dont know what I would do without his support.
I dont think this post had much of a point, everyone else was sleeping and I felt like writing, so I did.
I dont think the wine has anything to do with it, apart from the lack of coherence.
Oh wells.. Wish me luck, hopefully my next post begins with "I got the job"!
oxoxxoxooxox Leah