"Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong "
Hey kids. My feelings lately have been really weird. Up down up up up down down up up REALLY up REALLY down. Moodswings back hardcore. For the most part I'm loving life more than I could possibly. But I can't stop thinking. I've been living life up with gay boys lately, I stopped thinking about being intimate with someone. I've been so content with just friendships. Well I still am, those boys are my life. They mean everything to me and they have been there for me whenever I've asked. And I have so much fun with them. But it's been a year since anything serious, and the last time I had strong feelings for someone was in September. . . that's a long time.
I don't want Stephen. We're different people. But I still keep thinking about all the fun we had. Not because I want him back, because I want that back. I want someone to tease. I want someone to roughhouse with. I want someone to fucking look at me like I am the mother fucking world. I want someone to laugh with so hard we CRY. I want someone to care for when they are sick. I want someone to stick up for me when someone has treated me wrong. I want someone to be PROTECTIVE over me. I want someone to think about me when they are going to sleep at night. I want someone to lay with in my wonderfully comphy bed and just talk about life. I want someone to be a 5 year old with.
And I'm not fucking settling. I'm not going to go be with someone because they give me the time of day. That's fucking retarded. I just really wish someone could come along that compared to. . . well compared to him. And so far pretty much no one has.
I don't need someone to come along and be my everything. I guess I wish that someone would just come along to pass this lonely time with.
Someone take me on a date? Kthanks.
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Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything it felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Just seeing you it kills me now
No I don’t cry
On the outside anymore
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I don't want Stephen. We're different people. But I still keep thinking about all the fun we had. Not because I want him back, because I want that back. I want someone to tease. I want someone to roughhouse with. I want someone to fucking look at me like I am the mother fucking world. I want someone to laugh with so hard we CRY. I want someone to care for when they are sick. I want someone to stick up for me when someone has treated me wrong. I want someone to be PROTECTIVE over me. I want someone to think about me when they are going to sleep at night. I want someone to lay with in my wonderfully comphy bed and just talk about life. I want someone to be a 5 year old with.
And I'm not fucking settling. I'm not going to go be with someone because they give me the time of day. That's fucking retarded. I just really wish someone could come along that compared to. . . well compared to him. And so far pretty much no one has.
I don't need someone to come along and be my everything. I guess I wish that someone would just come along to pass this lonely time with.
Someone take me on a date? Kthanks.
*******************************************
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything it felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Just seeing you it kills me now
No I don’t cry
On the outside anymore
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes