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On Wednesday Marisa and I traveled to Westchester to visit Matt. We ended up waiting around for him and explored the Jefferson Valley mall to kill time. Then we got lost trying to find his house. Once we got there we ended up doing something, I don't really remember. Eventually we ended up at The Mohegan Diner. It can pretty much be summed up as The New City Diner. I'm glad I finally got to see it. We decided upon sweet potato fries and "The Dirty" (basically a chicken salad melt). I found out that I wasn't a huge fan of chicken salad in large quantities but it was good anyway. Matt paid and I felt guilty. Westchester is pretty much like Rockland: you drive around and complain that you have nothing to do but who really cares because you're with good friends. We found ourselves at the movie theatre and agreed on Stardust. Marisa wasn't feeling well so we got our money refunded and headed back to the Camussi residence. We played Scattegories with Mike briefly while being serenaded by Matt's "we like to be called indie but our lyrics are so emo" bands. I like them. Confusion began when Marisa said she didn't feel well enough to drive home. I wasn't legally allowed to and Matt didn't seem to be picking up on the hints when we brought up sleeping at a motel. Finally I asked him if we could crash, and felt terribly guilty and uneasy about it, but he agreed and we set up an air mattress in his room. Matt's phone rang twice. His friends were calling to hang out. We didn't go out and I felt guilty again. It's his last week home and he's going to see me practically every day at school and yet he's stuck entertaining us with board games and a broken computer. I didn't care that we had nothing to do. I just like to be in the company of friends. Computers are distracting from socializing and board games can only hold my attention for so long. I was happy to be seeing Matt and Marisa and spending time with them. It was something new since it was a collision of my home and school friends, but it was fun. Wendy's run at about this time. Matt and I went to allow Marisa to rest. I like night driving with him. It reminds me of every "we are teenagers driving around this town with no purpose and nothing to talk about but it feels right" song I've ever listened to. We ate. We took pictures. We got tired. Matt and I rested on the air mattress and the 3 of us watched The Office (American). Amazing show. I wanted to watch all of the episodes but I got distracted...I graduated. 4am and Matt was still next to me. It was comfortable. Maybe around 5 he went upstairs. Morgan greeted me at 6. I sent him up. He came back down. I chased him up. Again, he visited. By now I was up, not wanting to sleep but knowing my body needed it. Fell back asleep and woke up to Matt coming downstairs to sneak into bed with me. That made me incredibly happy. I thought of Blankets. We fell asleep. I woke up, got bored and proceeded to play with Chelsey outside. I love this dog. Once everyone was up, we took our time getting out of the house to go to breakfast. DD was good, I was glad that I finally had money to pay for these things. We took pictures. Matt's a very attractive guy to begin with but this one picture is unbelievable. One day he'll really how gorgeous he is. We headed to the park but never made it there. Mini golf was more intriguing. We met up with Stephan. 3 Pappys. Strangely, I felt out of place. I began to criticize what I was saying and commented to myself on how I wasn't funny. I realized then how frightened I am to return to school and to be thrown into improv again. I drove home. I drove home from Westchester. Marisa and I had a nice conversation in the car. I was somewhat glad that we got to stay over. I got home exhausted. Ate, napped, showered, music'd. Then, as I was getting into bed, my doorbell rang. Erin came in and Becky arrived shortly after. I forgot that they were coming to visit. We hung out and talked and I enjoyed myself. I was tired, but it was the last time I would see these girls for a while and I'd miss them. I had no trouble falling asleep that night. Jackie stopped by briefly today. I said goodbye to her as well. I've been in an off mood. I think I'm ready to go back to school but I'm anxious as to what will await me there. So many changes and so many decisions. I don't want be here anymore though. I decided that the week before I even came home. It was good seeing Matt. I can't wait to see him every day at school. And the Pappys, and my theatre crew, and my new music friends. I can't wait to commit to a school and a program. I'm ready for it. I'm excited. I think I just cured my off mood.