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ok. start off my weekend was wonderful, got to hang out with ann, shes great! ((had a blast ann, even though you and lil jon were arguing, he just loves you thats all)) but why.. why is it.. that i feel.. i have NO ONE here for me? its like.. my mom is never here for me, when she is, she has the person who pisses me off the most, and she knows that, over. and its like. why cant i get any respect? WHY!!!! i mean i realize i treat ppl like shit, like i said numerous entries ago, any one ive ever been mean to im sorry, im never intentionally a bitch.. ive been through so much shit that people dont know about, and will NEVER know.. and when im a bitch, i dont realize it til its done and too late. so be patient with me. i cry my self to sleep like lets see 2-3 days outta the week, why? i dont know.. maybe its cuz i feel i have no reason to be here, i feel im a waste of space. and there are ppl who help me feel that way. THANKS GUYS!! i mean really, how much hurt can one go through til they are completely pushed over the edge.. im about there.. i seriously feel as though i would much rather be dead then here sometimes, i know, i sound fuckin crazy but hey thats how i feel. i dont know what to do any more.. its like no one cares, they say "oh im here for you" "i love you" its all simply said, but not simply done. if you say it. show it. i dont really know what else to say, i cant stop crying, i have a migraine. fuck me! NO, fuck you (everyone who has hurt me). fuck the world?
goodbye