That awkward moment when...
You find yourself pouring over old entries and even older friends.... My how things change. I always find I look to the past when my current situation is bothering me. What I now have that I didn't have then are Xanax pills. Yay! So hopefully this won't turn into an all night thing. I guess I look to the past because I'm never certain about my future. I always figured I'd be dead by now. Honest. Maybe swallowed a bunch of pills or just gave myself to the sea. Something just keeps telling me, not yet. Maybe it's a good thing for now, I have the most beautiful children in the world to care for. Regardless, I've got to stop looking at the past. I'm not dwelling on it, just enjoying the happy long gone memories. I will never wonder what could have been because I honestly don't care for that anymore, I just miss what was.