the preposterous notion

[yattaboe]

This is an interesting concept. The brain is the only organ that tries to make sense of its pain. It is if the bone were trying to understand the break, as if the blood vessel could comprehend its rupture. But this is also its greatest impediment to understanding. The mind clings fiercely to any alternative to chaos, even if that alternative is self-destruction; the tunnel vision of suicide, when death seems the only solution to an intolerable existence, is the brain's categorical rejection of the preposterous notion that anything about its perception of events might be amiss. But the reverse ought also to be true: the healthy mind might be able to understand its own malfunction.

Tracy Thompson; The Beast