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I'm writing this as I dread to study for my test on wed. Due to the hurricane Wilma coming, classes got cancelled tom but unfortunately my test did not get postponed. It sucks...
Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I know what I want to do with my life in terms of jobs and a career. But I fear I won't be successful. I'm doing okay in school except one class and that's marketing...what I'm majoring in. If I'm lacking to understand the basis of marketing, then what good am I going to do in the future?
All my life I just wanted someone to love me. I'm finding that the impossible. I don't even have the slightest interest in a lot of the guys I meet and hang out with....just one and it's always been the same one. Sometimes I think, well what am I doing feeling for someone that has gotten me nowhere but heartache? I'm not with him...we keep arguing making us even further apart...we seem to be different ppl now wanting different things. I don't know the answer to it, but I know I can't change the way I feel and I don't want to. I know things happen for a reason, and I think, for once, I'm willing to wait and see what happens.
Time keeps getting closer til I buy my ticket for Europe and Iran next summer...only a lil over a month left. I'm really excited to go bc deep down I know it's a once in a lifetime chance and I need to do this. My only fear is that I'm leaving so many things behind and I know things will change when I would get back....prob for the worst since that's how it usually gets. But then again, maybe the worst already hit me and life will get better now. I guess we'll seeee...time to study now..bleh
Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I know what I want to do with my life in terms of jobs and a career. But I fear I won't be successful. I'm doing okay in school except one class and that's marketing...what I'm majoring in. If I'm lacking to understand the basis of marketing, then what good am I going to do in the future?
All my life I just wanted someone to love me. I'm finding that the impossible. I don't even have the slightest interest in a lot of the guys I meet and hang out with....just one and it's always been the same one. Sometimes I think, well what am I doing feeling for someone that has gotten me nowhere but heartache? I'm not with him...we keep arguing making us even further apart...we seem to be different ppl now wanting different things. I don't know the answer to it, but I know I can't change the way I feel and I don't want to. I know things happen for a reason, and I think, for once, I'm willing to wait and see what happens.
Time keeps getting closer til I buy my ticket for Europe and Iran next summer...only a lil over a month left. I'm really excited to go bc deep down I know it's a once in a lifetime chance and I need to do this. My only fear is that I'm leaving so many things behind and I know things will change when I would get back....prob for the worst since that's how it usually gets. But then again, maybe the worst already hit me and life will get better now. I guess we'll seeee...time to study now..bleh