Thinkin...
I hate doin that. It gets me in a lot of trouble. I'm not sure how to put everythin into words anymore. Some things are just is...I guess I'll try...
I had a bad day at work for the most part. Some new ppl called me "bossy" and it bothered me bc I never tell anyone what to do. I'm sorry I've been there for almost 4 years and I know more than them but they don't need to talk behind my back and be cold to me all day...it just hurts to see ppl act that way.
Miami trip was fun...I'm glad I went..I really am. My intentions on goin came out totally different when we got back. It's really funny actually. I thought...hmm nevermind what I thought. No more thinkin...it just is.
Some people just never change...they just don't. Others are interestin how they live their life. As much as I wanted that one thing in my life, it's never gona happen. Everyday I think about some new reason why it just couldn't happen. I just realized somethin 30min ago that interested me and why I'm just not meant to have that. I really thought that was over and I didn't have to worry about it anymore....I was wrong.
I know I'm meant in this world for some reason. I just sometimes wish I can figure it out why I am instead of living in misery. I never really cared for money, popularity, power...I don't know what else. All I ever truly wanted was to be happy...just a happy person. I thought that if I had someone to love me just as much as I love them then that would be enough. But I don't belive that's the case anymore...mostly bc it's not meant to happen for me.
I guess for the past month or so I've been livin a life knowin that it's okay to be lonely...just as long as I'm happy. I've tried to work out the happiness life to some extent but there is just no use bc there's always gona be that empty place in my heart....well whatever left of it that is.
I don't care to have you anymore. I know we are not meant to be and we will never be. I just wish I wouldn't keep realizin all the bad reasons why it's this way....
I'm slowly startin to like you less and less....I think that is a good thing and how it should be...
I had a bad day at work for the most part. Some new ppl called me "bossy" and it bothered me bc I never tell anyone what to do. I'm sorry I've been there for almost 4 years and I know more than them but they don't need to talk behind my back and be cold to me all day...it just hurts to see ppl act that way.
Miami trip was fun...I'm glad I went..I really am. My intentions on goin came out totally different when we got back. It's really funny actually. I thought...hmm nevermind what I thought. No more thinkin...it just is.
Some people just never change...they just don't. Others are interestin how they live their life. As much as I wanted that one thing in my life, it's never gona happen. Everyday I think about some new reason why it just couldn't happen. I just realized somethin 30min ago that interested me and why I'm just not meant to have that. I really thought that was over and I didn't have to worry about it anymore....I was wrong.
I know I'm meant in this world for some reason. I just sometimes wish I can figure it out why I am instead of living in misery. I never really cared for money, popularity, power...I don't know what else. All I ever truly wanted was to be happy...just a happy person. I thought that if I had someone to love me just as much as I love them then that would be enough. But I don't belive that's the case anymore...mostly bc it's not meant to happen for me.
I guess for the past month or so I've been livin a life knowin that it's okay to be lonely...just as long as I'm happy. I've tried to work out the happiness life to some extent but there is just no use bc there's always gona be that empty place in my heart....well whatever left of it that is.
I don't care to have you anymore. I know we are not meant to be and we will never be. I just wish I wouldn't keep realizin all the bad reasons why it's this way....
I'm slowly startin to like you less and less....I think that is a good thing and how it should be...