Still Confused, What? You mean that's not the story of my life?! Ye gods!
So uhm me and Sarah are still getting along really well. Yay! She hasn't told me to back off and she's said that I worry too much (i.e. in regards to getting closer to her, flirting and sexual innuendo stuff). She apparently got and made me presents even though she was worried because I don't *technically* celebrate Christmas, but then I told her about the holiday party and she got really excited and wants to help with the baking and everything. And while we were at work one day she was telling me all about this really nice dress that she wants to wear to the party and she asked if it was okay.
So I told her, "you can wear whatever you want to my place."
And she said, "well that's probably a bad idea."
I asked why.
She said, "because I'll probably show up in lingerie or something."
And then she was like 'oh crap is Scott gonna be there' and I said yes and she said "Oh I don't want to do that for him".
I just really want to be around her. I don't care if she doesn't know her sexuality. I don't care if we got together officially that I would have to pretend to be single. I just want to hold her and hug her and be there for her. I want to give her jewelry and hold her close in front of fires or candles. I want to take her ice skating and make snow angels, I want to walk down broadway in winter clothes in the snow with her. I just want to be with her.
Part of me feels ridiculous and stupid and like I fell head over heels way too fast and the rest of me is like this is the most amazing feeling in the world even if it turns out to be nothing.
So I told her, "you can wear whatever you want to my place."
And she said, "well that's probably a bad idea."
I asked why.
She said, "because I'll probably show up in lingerie or something."
And then she was like 'oh crap is Scott gonna be there' and I said yes and she said "Oh I don't want to do that for him".
I just really want to be around her. I don't care if she doesn't know her sexuality. I don't care if we got together officially that I would have to pretend to be single. I just want to hold her and hug her and be there for her. I want to give her jewelry and hold her close in front of fires or candles. I want to take her ice skating and make snow angels, I want to walk down broadway in winter clothes in the snow with her. I just want to be with her.
Part of me feels ridiculous and stupid and like I fell head over heels way too fast and the rest of me is like this is the most amazing feeling in the world even if it turns out to be nothing.