flamingo dancing by moon light
i dont have internet again.
ive been so busy lately. With pool parties and graduation parties and get togethers with friends and doing chores around the house and in preperation for my departure to Chicago in a few months.
my parents keep changing their minds about where we are going to go as a vacation trip. first they thought we'd go to the panama, then florida, then hawaii, then germany, then italy, then turkey, and its back to hawaii again. I do think, however, that Hawaii is the final decision. I am not quite sure when we will be leaving but im not all that excited. Does that make me spoiled? i dont know.
i bought a cool ring with a monkey on it.
lately ive been confusing myself a lot. mixed emotions and...well... i guess im still a bit sad that i wont see most of the people from NDP anymore. ... but ive been seeing some of my NDP pals at the mall, and i saw one girl at lifetime today at the pool and i saw some at Borden Park yesterday as well. I never said hello. if i keep feeling sad that im leaving them all then why do i not care enough to say hello to them when they are right there in front of me?
perhaps its not that im going to miss any of them, but that i will miss the memories i had with them. or something... i dont know
my mom was acting a fool yesterday in the car back from fire dont know.
works at the Park. There was a jillion cars in traffic and we were stuck and the road we needed in order to get home was closed off. so it was me my sister and my mom and the gas was practically gone. my mom kept screaming "WE ARE GOING TO GET LOST AND WE ARE GOING TO BE STUCK IN THE CAR!!!" she was freaking out and being really loud and dumb. she was saying that we'd have to sleep in the car tonight even though we were only really 8 minutes away from my house. i kept telling her if the gas dies we'd just call dad and he'd pick us up becuase he was at home. But my mom was being really foolish and my sister said "fuck you mom" so my mom hit her and i laughed really really hard. it was scary but funny at the same time.
i was sewing on some sequins and beads and stuff to a plain white shirt i had... and it was looker uber awesome when i was half way through it. ... now i just dont feel like finishing it anymore. i dont just want to. it really stinks. its like sometimes i have a great idea for a new book i could write...and i write the first chapter and im thinking "man this is going to be an awesome book, im going to be bigger then J.K Rowling!" or something but the next day i just dont feel like doing anything with it anymore. so i have the begging to perhaps 38 books saved on my computer. they are all waiting to be typed and finished with but i would rather watch tv.
im sort of tan now.
<3 levi. i want to see war of the worlds. and i will. hopefully on saturday.
i miss myra. come back from spain.
i walked from lifetime to the library and i picked a really pretty flower on the way and the wind took it right out of my hands and i wanted to chase it but i didn't.
___yasmingo flamingo ayeeeeee