i left school early, today
matt klein was being an asshole again, and i snapped, again.
yesterday he was going on for about 3-5 minutes, making sounds like daniel was giving him oral sex. i got sick of it and took a jumper wire, wrapped it around his neck, and pulled. just hard enough to leave a slight red mark. he responded, with something like, "whoa!" and kind of laughed it off. i startled him, but didn't hurt him. i just wanted him to shut up.
today we were taking a break from class when it happened again. some of us were sitting around a table when matt stated that women "are all dumb bitches." i rolled the magazine/newspaper i had been reading, stood up, said something to the effect of "yeah, maybe i am a bitch" and bopped him on the head. i did it medium hard, but it was just enough to knock his glasses off. he immediately stood up and through me against the wall. i don't really remember hitting the wall except that my head started to hurt, but i swear i was standing there, watching, in third person view. i don't remember getting up, either. somebody asked if i was alright and i told them that i would be.
i went back up to matt and told him, with tears in my eyes, that i was tired of his misogynistic, chauvinistic bullshit. then i grabbed his collar and pushed his head down. i was trying to grab and pull at his hair, but it was too short. i pushed him away and stormed off to the women's bathroom, about 10 feet away. i sat down in the chair in there, and heard somebody ask where our instructor was. a few seconds later, i heard doug walk into the room and ask if there was a fight. matt told him that he and i were fighting, and that i ran away outside. i was too busy hyperventilating to go back out and correct him.
i took my time to calm down, went back to the machine tool room to get my coat, and headed back to building 600 for my backpack. i saw doug on the way back, and he followed me back into 600. he asked me if i was alright, and what happened. i told him, briefly, and added that i have trouble dealing with constant harassment from misogynistic assholes. he said that he had noticed that matt was getting bad, and he said that we were going to have to work all of this out next week. he asked again if i was alright, and wanted me to calm down more before i got behind the wheel. i did.
i spent the first half of the 12-minute drive home screaming, and the second part praying and begging for help and guidance from God.
my head hurt so much that i took some excedrin migraine. it hurt in my ear when i swallowed, too. i thought i could taste blood, but i am pretty sure that it's just all the snot from crying.
jeremy said he wants to punch matt in the mouth. virgil wants matt to be expelled. i told him not to get involved, that doug would handle it. i am so afraid that if i try to get matt in trouble about it, that the guys in class will side with him. they are all members of the penis club, after all, and matt has been rubbing off on them lately, especially greggy. matt seemed pretty proud when he declared that, too.
i am not going to work tonight.
you don't have to comment. i just wanted to get all of this out.
yesterday he was going on for about 3-5 minutes, making sounds like daniel was giving him oral sex. i got sick of it and took a jumper wire, wrapped it around his neck, and pulled. just hard enough to leave a slight red mark. he responded, with something like, "whoa!" and kind of laughed it off. i startled him, but didn't hurt him. i just wanted him to shut up.
today we were taking a break from class when it happened again. some of us were sitting around a table when matt stated that women "are all dumb bitches." i rolled the magazine/newspaper i had been reading, stood up, said something to the effect of "yeah, maybe i am a bitch" and bopped him on the head. i did it medium hard, but it was just enough to knock his glasses off. he immediately stood up and through me against the wall. i don't really remember hitting the wall except that my head started to hurt, but i swear i was standing there, watching, in third person view. i don't remember getting up, either. somebody asked if i was alright and i told them that i would be.
i went back up to matt and told him, with tears in my eyes, that i was tired of his misogynistic, chauvinistic bullshit. then i grabbed his collar and pushed his head down. i was trying to grab and pull at his hair, but it was too short. i pushed him away and stormed off to the women's bathroom, about 10 feet away. i sat down in the chair in there, and heard somebody ask where our instructor was. a few seconds later, i heard doug walk into the room and ask if there was a fight. matt told him that he and i were fighting, and that i ran away outside. i was too busy hyperventilating to go back out and correct him.
i took my time to calm down, went back to the machine tool room to get my coat, and headed back to building 600 for my backpack. i saw doug on the way back, and he followed me back into 600. he asked me if i was alright, and what happened. i told him, briefly, and added that i have trouble dealing with constant harassment from misogynistic assholes. he said that he had noticed that matt was getting bad, and he said that we were going to have to work all of this out next week. he asked again if i was alright, and wanted me to calm down more before i got behind the wheel. i did.
i spent the first half of the 12-minute drive home screaming, and the second part praying and begging for help and guidance from God.
my head hurt so much that i took some excedrin migraine. it hurt in my ear when i swallowed, too. i thought i could taste blood, but i am pretty sure that it's just all the snot from crying.
jeremy said he wants to punch matt in the mouth. virgil wants matt to be expelled. i told him not to get involved, that doug would handle it. i am so afraid that if i try to get matt in trouble about it, that the guys in class will side with him. they are all members of the penis club, after all, and matt has been rubbing off on them lately, especially greggy. matt seemed pretty proud when he declared that, too.
i am not going to work tonight.
you don't have to comment. i just wanted to get all of this out.