y'all knew this was coming
I MISS NICK.
i miss him so much.
i'm all lonely and bored and ugh. the few friends i have are usually busy, live too far away, and/or don't think that i would like their kind of "parties" (which is true, i don't like "drink 'til you puke" festivals). there aren't many good movies out to go to, either. when nick was here, i would hang out with him and his friends. i really enjoyed it, for the most part. even if we didn't do anything, he was there. just talking, cuddling, sleeping were enough.
but i'm so mad at him! he joined the army without talking to me about it. he didn't even warn me. now he's in korea for 1-2 years, and he doesn't know where he will be after that. i haven't seen him since mid august, and it is driving me crazy. >__< i feel so selfish about being mad at him, though.
i can't stand the waiting, but i don't want to break up with him. i miss the romantic love. i think about nick all the time, and other people remind me of him when i am not thinking about him. i hate it! i hate this feeling!
he calls when i am at work or school, so i haven't talked to him in over two weeks. talking to him, even for a few minutes, makes the waiting so much easier.
i want to start "settling down". i want to get engaged and married and have babies. but that will all have to stay on hold...
people tell me that i am crazy for waiting. it's the waiting that is making me crazy.
i miss him so much.
i'm all lonely and bored and ugh. the few friends i have are usually busy, live too far away, and/or don't think that i would like their kind of "parties" (which is true, i don't like "drink 'til you puke" festivals). there aren't many good movies out to go to, either. when nick was here, i would hang out with him and his friends. i really enjoyed it, for the most part. even if we didn't do anything, he was there. just talking, cuddling, sleeping were enough.
but i'm so mad at him! he joined the army without talking to me about it. he didn't even warn me. now he's in korea for 1-2 years, and he doesn't know where he will be after that. i haven't seen him since mid august, and it is driving me crazy. >__< i feel so selfish about being mad at him, though.
i can't stand the waiting, but i don't want to break up with him. i miss the romantic love. i think about nick all the time, and other people remind me of him when i am not thinking about him. i hate it! i hate this feeling!
he calls when i am at work or school, so i haven't talked to him in over two weeks. talking to him, even for a few minutes, makes the waiting so much easier.
i want to start "settling down". i want to get engaged and married and have babies. but that will all have to stay on hold...
people tell me that i am crazy for waiting. it's the waiting that is making me crazy.