Another emo dive entry.
I am torn between blowing off my summer savings from internship and election work for something I have always wanted to do (ie. dive lessons, finally) vis-a-vis "saving it for a rainy day." Sometimes I wish money just grew on trees. There are so many places to go to / experience/ see, but always, it requires dough, and sadly, dough isn't something you get just like that.
But then a big part of me is really itching, and I really feel that there is no better time to do this than NOW... I mean okay fine, I could probably do this AFTER graduation, when I'm working and earning already, but isn't that too late? I mean, I don't know if I can still wait several years from now... Fine, diving is a pretty expensive hobby but really, nothing makes me happier and more excited than being underwater... so okay, are we really doing this? Are we really going to say bye-bye to at least Php15,000?
Then again there is no such thing as wasted money if it's a good investment, and diving IS an investment. Except it won't give me any monetary return, but definitely a LOT emotionally, physically... maybe even spiritually. See, I've also been thinking a lot lately about what kind of a religion I'm really practicing. I have to be honest. I go to mass nowadays more out of comfort, out of habit, out of obligation. Was talking to G again and he told me he didn't believe in God and heaven, but he did believe in the NOW. "Why is there a heaven? It is because people are afraid of what's going to happen after they die?" It just got me thinking. Do I believe in an after-life because I'm afraid of life ending? But one thing is certain-- nothing is permanent, and maybe the reason why we die, is so that we can LIVE.
And then I stumbled across an article by Umberto Eco where he says "When a man ceases to believe in God, he doesn't believe in nothing. He believes in anything."
As to Catholicism and its practices -- I would be a hypocrite to say that I fully subscribe to such. Sometimes I still find myself cringing at how the Church tends to interpret things literally -- being against homosexuals, arguing that the only way "to be saved" is "to believe." Stuff like that. But I DO believe in a GREATER BEING. And I'd like to think that I CHOOSE to believe not because I'm afraid, or I need some form of "opium" but just because. Like the world is so beautiful, miracles happen everyday, things fall into place when you pray hard... what are the odds that ALL THAT just happened "by chance?"
Anyway, I have exactly one-week free time (my only semblance of a vacation, apart from the US trip) before school starts. Tatalon na ba ako?
But then a big part of me is really itching, and I really feel that there is no better time to do this than NOW... I mean okay fine, I could probably do this AFTER graduation, when I'm working and earning already, but isn't that too late? I mean, I don't know if I can still wait several years from now... Fine, diving is a pretty expensive hobby but really, nothing makes me happier and more excited than being underwater... so okay, are we really doing this? Are we really going to say bye-bye to at least Php15,000?
Then again there is no such thing as wasted money if it's a good investment, and diving IS an investment. Except it won't give me any monetary return, but definitely a LOT emotionally, physically... maybe even spiritually. See, I've also been thinking a lot lately about what kind of a religion I'm really practicing. I have to be honest. I go to mass nowadays more out of comfort, out of habit, out of obligation. Was talking to G again and he told me he didn't believe in God and heaven, but he did believe in the NOW. "Why is there a heaven? It is because people are afraid of what's going to happen after they die?" It just got me thinking. Do I believe in an after-life because I'm afraid of life ending? But one thing is certain-- nothing is permanent, and maybe the reason why we die, is so that we can LIVE.
And then I stumbled across an article by Umberto Eco where he says "When a man ceases to believe in God, he doesn't believe in nothing. He believes in anything."
As to Catholicism and its practices -- I would be a hypocrite to say that I fully subscribe to such. Sometimes I still find myself cringing at how the Church tends to interpret things literally -- being against homosexuals, arguing that the only way "to be saved" is "to believe." Stuff like that. But I DO believe in a GREATER BEING. And I'd like to think that I CHOOSE to believe not because I'm afraid, or I need some form of "opium" but just because. Like the world is so beautiful, miracles happen everyday, things fall into place when you pray hard... what are the odds that ALL THAT just happened "by chance?"
Anyway, I have exactly one-week free time (my only semblance of a vacation, apart from the US trip) before school starts. Tatalon na ba ako?