post-Christmas morn
It's the morning after Christmas and I still can't sleep.
Either I drank too much coffee, or I'm thinking too much, but maybe it's more of the latter. Not that I'm burdening myself with negative, petty thoughts -- but perhaps it's more that I can't help but realize what a damn crazy year 2009 was. And how time just flew by so fast. I look at Facebook and see friends getting engaged, married or having babies.
And here I am, still a student, not really knowing what the future has in store for me. Not that I can do anything about it, but sometimes, I feel like I'm in a "happy little bubble world," and I wish it wouldn't end, yet I know it's bound to. I'm having so much fun learning new things, laughing with the most awesome people, drinking every weekend, trying out stuff I never did before (nothing illegal though, that's for sure.. or so I think hehe). And then there's this Christmas, which was just abso-f-in-lutely fantastic. I got to see old friends, meet new ones, be with family and get a taste of just about every kind of scrumptious and evil dish there is to feast the mouth on.
Like I wonder if all of THIS has a catch... I don't mean to be such a worrywart, but I suppose I'm at this point where I know the road ahead is pretty soon going to be tougher (moot court competition, internship, handle barops, then thesis, then brace for the bar and eventually find my place at work and earn enough to make up for the 4-years of fending on allowance--not to mention contend with bitchy lawyers and quirky judges). I just pray and hope that I'll be ready when that time comes.
For awhile I stepped out of Neverland (experienced the tough-ass "real world" that is advertising for a year), and then strangely, it's like I sort of went back to it when I went to law school. Like once again, everything was laid out for me, and all I had to worry about (for the most part at least) were grades. No money, no scary bosses or hard-to-please clients. What's more, if college was crazy, law school is CRAZIER -- in a good way. Or perhaps it's also the company-- being with people who aren't afraid to try new things, travel, risk and live. Is that good or bad? I don't know. But all I know is I'm really, really happy. Happy but scared. Hayyy here I go again. It's like being in those honeymoon relationship stages -- only it's been 2 yrs of school now and I'm still on honeymoon stage. I suppose the best way to approach it is, like always, day by day. But yeah, I just had to write it down, so I won't forget. I remember writing a similar entry a year ago, when I said I was feeling blissful, and it's funny how until now, I still am. :) Hayyyy life. :D Oh well, I guess I just have to bask in this moment.
Basta thanks Jess-- for so much. ♥
If '09 was year of the feisty (and it sure was wild! haha), 2010 is gonna SIZZLE. :)
Either I drank too much coffee, or I'm thinking too much, but maybe it's more of the latter. Not that I'm burdening myself with negative, petty thoughts -- but perhaps it's more that I can't help but realize what a damn crazy year 2009 was. And how time just flew by so fast. I look at Facebook and see friends getting engaged, married or having babies.
And here I am, still a student, not really knowing what the future has in store for me. Not that I can do anything about it, but sometimes, I feel like I'm in a "happy little bubble world," and I wish it wouldn't end, yet I know it's bound to. I'm having so much fun learning new things, laughing with the most awesome people, drinking every weekend, trying out stuff I never did before (nothing illegal though, that's for sure.. or so I think hehe). And then there's this Christmas, which was just abso-f-in-lutely fantastic. I got to see old friends, meet new ones, be with family and get a taste of just about every kind of scrumptious and evil dish there is to feast the mouth on.
Like I wonder if all of THIS has a catch... I don't mean to be such a worrywart, but I suppose I'm at this point where I know the road ahead is pretty soon going to be tougher (moot court competition, internship, handle barops, then thesis, then brace for the bar and eventually find my place at work and earn enough to make up for the 4-years of fending on allowance--not to mention contend with bitchy lawyers and quirky judges). I just pray and hope that I'll be ready when that time comes.
For awhile I stepped out of Neverland (experienced the tough-ass "real world" that is advertising for a year), and then strangely, it's like I sort of went back to it when I went to law school. Like once again, everything was laid out for me, and all I had to worry about (for the most part at least) were grades. No money, no scary bosses or hard-to-please clients. What's more, if college was crazy, law school is CRAZIER -- in a good way. Or perhaps it's also the company-- being with people who aren't afraid to try new things, travel, risk and live. Is that good or bad? I don't know. But all I know is I'm really, really happy. Happy but scared. Hayyy here I go again. It's like being in those honeymoon relationship stages -- only it's been 2 yrs of school now and I'm still on honeymoon stage. I suppose the best way to approach it is, like always, day by day. But yeah, I just had to write it down, so I won't forget. I remember writing a similar entry a year ago, when I said I was feeling blissful, and it's funny how until now, I still am. :) Hayyyy life. :D Oh well, I guess I just have to bask in this moment.
Basta thanks Jess-- for so much. ♥
If '09 was year of the feisty (and it sure was wild! haha), 2010 is gonna SIZZLE. :)