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i got a job.... at least i think so... they didn't pay me for the 6.5 hours i did tonight... "training." and i probably won't get paid for the how-ever-many-hours i do tomorrow. but soon enough.... money...
even if they don't pay me... it's good to have something to do. i was starting to go out of my mind. last night i launched a preemptive defensive strike because i am afraid of morphing into "a couple." I don't want to change who i am. i want to be loved for who i am... i was just saying that in an overly and unnessecarily aggressive way. at least he stuck around to let me explain. thanks.
my biggest fear is being left alone. yet again... people leaving without trying work it out... or even better, leaving without telling me they're leaving. it's a pattern with the men in my life. i hope it never happens again. i'm damaged enough by the couple of times it has happened already.
well this is what i'm going to buy with the money once i get it:
1. black sneakers (job expense)
2. black shirts (job expense)
3. bike lock (sort of a job expense... more a life expense)
that's all i've got.
even if they don't pay me... it's good to have something to do. i was starting to go out of my mind. last night i launched a preemptive defensive strike because i am afraid of morphing into "a couple." I don't want to change who i am. i want to be loved for who i am... i was just saying that in an overly and unnessecarily aggressive way. at least he stuck around to let me explain. thanks.
my biggest fear is being left alone. yet again... people leaving without trying work it out... or even better, leaving without telling me they're leaving. it's a pattern with the men in my life. i hope it never happens again. i'm damaged enough by the couple of times it has happened already.
well this is what i'm going to buy with the money once i get it:
1. black sneakers (job expense)
2. black shirts (job expense)
3. bike lock (sort of a job expense... more a life expense)
that's all i've got.