Cliff-Diving.
I'm been on this ledge twice before.
(Ending the Disney College Program)
Both times I made a choice that inevitably turned out to be the Wrong decision.
The first time, I was SO happy with my life, I thought I had cured myself of the depression like state that I had been in before I arrived in Orlando, and I thought I could go back home with a fresh out-look and be just fine.
I then spent 3 years dealing with mediocrity with very few high points or times I actually thought I was happy.
Returning to Orlando was exactly what I needed. And I know this is exactly where I need to be right now.
HOWEVER, at the end of my last program, I had rationalized and figured out that the best move would be to leave Orlando for 3 months while I finished up some school stuff, and made some real money at a real job. In April, I was not even slightly confused about how 2009 would end, where I would be, or what condition my life would be in.... Then I started dating an AMAZING girl.
I continued to maintain, that despite her staying here this summer, I would be back in Orlando in August, and we'd just have to ... keep in touch and either pick things up where we left off, or ... I dont know what. BUT THEN ... She cast a spell on me? ... No She asked me to be "official" / "exclusive" the night before the deadline to extend the program, and while I didn't think that I was making the decision for her, I was also thrown off by a fake job offer that fell through. So A combination of being TRULY happy about everything in Orlando, and PISSED about lies I was being told outside of Disney, I extended my program until August.
WRONG.
Now I am still without money, am about 12 credits more behind than i intended to be, Oh and she broke up with me.
All 3 of those things would have been different, I'm positive of this.
And here I am at that cliff again... .... Almost time for that Jump. I know where I want to land, I just don't how enjoyable this dive is going to be.
(Ending the Disney College Program)
Both times I made a choice that inevitably turned out to be the Wrong decision.
The first time, I was SO happy with my life, I thought I had cured myself of the depression like state that I had been in before I arrived in Orlando, and I thought I could go back home with a fresh out-look and be just fine.
I then spent 3 years dealing with mediocrity with very few high points or times I actually thought I was happy.
Returning to Orlando was exactly what I needed. And I know this is exactly where I need to be right now.
HOWEVER, at the end of my last program, I had rationalized and figured out that the best move would be to leave Orlando for 3 months while I finished up some school stuff, and made some real money at a real job. In April, I was not even slightly confused about how 2009 would end, where I would be, or what condition my life would be in.... Then I started dating an AMAZING girl.
I continued to maintain, that despite her staying here this summer, I would be back in Orlando in August, and we'd just have to ... keep in touch and either pick things up where we left off, or ... I dont know what. BUT THEN ... She cast a spell on me? ... No She asked me to be "official" / "exclusive" the night before the deadline to extend the program, and while I didn't think that I was making the decision for her, I was also thrown off by a fake job offer that fell through. So A combination of being TRULY happy about everything in Orlando, and PISSED about lies I was being told outside of Disney, I extended my program until August.
WRONG.
Now I am still without money, am about 12 credits more behind than i intended to be, Oh and she broke up with me.
All 3 of those things would have been different, I'm positive of this.
And here I am at that cliff again... .... Almost time for that Jump. I know where I want to land, I just don't how enjoyable this dive is going to be.