Jun 23, 2005 22:17
i would rather be noble
but the closest i can come
is some variety of oily anger in the back of my throat
that occasionally erupts
(well-disguised and inconspicuous)
as a question.
or sometimes a bruise
because my blood can't stand to boil
and the vessels burst
and puddle in confused freedom
under a milimeter of skin.
tomorow will be the longest day of my life. work from 9-5, rehearsal from 5-8:30, show from 8:30-11. apparently the need to EAT is not really an issue at point sebago. saturday should make up for it though, sleeping in and then hanging out, then RBF. so excited for that.
i can't relax enough to sleep. just keep thinking "in nine hours i have to wake up, and then i won't sleep for seventeen more hours after that. shit."
hung out with dj and some cool kids from portland today. it was pretty chill. bubble tea is gross. i might buy dj's car.
last night i dreamed a lot, and it made me realize that i haven't dreamed for a long time. just haven't fallen deep enough asleep to dream. that bothers me. not sure why sleep is such an issue for me. don't know why i can't just fall asleep and that's that, like a normal person.