long time no write.
i suck at updating.
i feel like all my entries have been starting like this lately.
this past week has been overwhelmingly stressful. i have SO much work that needs to get done. I only have a few weeks left of school and then its summer. I cannot wait. I just can't wait for the school work to be done. next semester i am taking it easy, so i can bring up my GPA. I was so dumb, I can't believe i actually took three writing intensive courses. And on top of that I agreed to start writing for The Webster Theaters new website. which is more stress added onto it all. I want to do really well cause I don't want to disappoint my parents or myself, but its just so hard. I can't sleep at night because i just lay awake thinking about everything I have to do and how there doesn't seem to be any time in the day to do it all. And while I know there is time, because i could be doing homework right now, I don't have the motivation to do it. I'm just drained. I'm done, I want to be done. I'm also having a major life crisis at the moment. I don't know what I want to do with my life, and i feel like Im just gonna get out of college and end up a deadbeat. God, life is just so overwhelmingly complicated. I guess I just long for the days when a hard decision was what I was doing on the weekend or what kind of shoes I was going to wear.
On another note, my house is finally going to be torn down soon. It should be within a week or two. they still have lots of permits and stuff to sort though. I haven't really been thinking about it, but i think its weighing down in the back of my mind. Im just distracted. And with everything going on at home i feel like there are better things i could be doing with my life... even if its just working. I'm also stressed about trying to find a job for the summer.
On a brighter note, i mentioned The Webster Theater job earlier. This is gonna be really cool when its all said and done and i dont have to do it while doing other work. Essentially what it is, is that the theater used to have a free zine they would hand out after shows, now they are bringing that back as a website. My friend dave is designing the website, and my friend Harris interns at the theater, so im gonna intern as a writer. Its going to look awesome on a resume. Its exactly what i want to do... write about music. Im gonna write band previews. its going to be great, in the long run.