ugh.
so I have been really sucking at updating lately. I just haven't been in the mood or had the time or just plain didn't feel like it. Not so much has happened...i mean a lot of has happened but nothing that will require great explanation.
A few days after my birthday, my friends threw me a surprise party. it was really really awesome. I hate surprises but it was cool anyways. I'm glad that all my friends were there and there was no drama or anything.
Towards the end of my break my Uncle got married so we went to his wedding reception. It was really nice. I love his wife, she is the sweetest person ever. And there was an open bar and all my family was there so it was really nice to get family time. I always bitch about my family but i love them and all their craziness.
Then the next night me, my parents and little brother, my aunt, my uncle, his wife, her friend , her mom, and my aunt and uncle's high school friends all went bowling. it was really really fun. I'm so glad that we went. The guys kept buying rounds of beers for everyone and we just had fun. i've never really had fun like that with my family.
The rest of break was just me hanging out with friends. It was nice to be home and just doing nothing. Oh. We did go snowboarding. Which was sweet. I fell a lot but did a lot better than i have ever done. The next day we were so sore we could barely walk..it was really funny.
Now I am back at school and I already feel slightly overwhelmed. I have been to all my classes and they seem pretty nice. My writing class sounds amazing but like a LOT of work. I don't know how well I will do with the challenge but I'm ready. I am taking Journalism again...[i was suppose to take it freshman year but i dropped it] so i have a new perspective about it and i think im going to like it. Socialism sounds alright...its just some dumb class i'm forced to take but the teacher seemed cool...so maybe that will help. Then romanticism in the arts totally SUCKS.. it is taught by some stuffy music school ass and sounds really super boring...so that should totoally suck. And media and society seems really neat..especially since my advisor is teaching it and he is awesome.
So it is Saturday night, 10:30 and I am sitting in my room being super lame. Ever since I have been back we have been really busy. As soon as I got back after I unpacked we went to see Harris, Dave, Barry, and Matt at their new house which is SO cute. That was tuesday, Wednesday we went to their house after our classes again, and then on thursday we went there again. On friday we had no class and went to the mall and to run errands for the guys. Then we went out and partied last night. today we ran more errands and then to some dinner that was on the food network. I am EXHAUSTED. So i opted for not going out and getting trashed casue i have tons of homework to do tomorrow.
To be totally honest...i don't even know if i want to be here. I haven't had time to process shit and i think right at this moment i finally am.
i wanna go home. I wanna be with my family even if we fight and aren't together all the time. I want to really go home..I want to be home when they start going through my house and they take it down. I feel really guilty attending some over priced college that probably won't even get me anywhere in life, where all i do is complain about class and homework and then get drunk. Its ridiculous. I'm just tired of pretending things are good and okay when they aren't cause its exhusting. Most days things actually are okay. but then something will happen to just set me off and put me in the awful mood where all i want to do is sleep or lay in my own bed or cry....and i'm totally sick of that feeling. i wish i never ever have to feel like that ever.
ugh..and i dont even have any tylenol pm.
A few days after my birthday, my friends threw me a surprise party. it was really really awesome. I hate surprises but it was cool anyways. I'm glad that all my friends were there and there was no drama or anything.
Towards the end of my break my Uncle got married so we went to his wedding reception. It was really nice. I love his wife, she is the sweetest person ever. And there was an open bar and all my family was there so it was really nice to get family time. I always bitch about my family but i love them and all their craziness.
Then the next night me, my parents and little brother, my aunt, my uncle, his wife, her friend , her mom, and my aunt and uncle's high school friends all went bowling. it was really really fun. I'm so glad that we went. The guys kept buying rounds of beers for everyone and we just had fun. i've never really had fun like that with my family.
The rest of break was just me hanging out with friends. It was nice to be home and just doing nothing. Oh. We did go snowboarding. Which was sweet. I fell a lot but did a lot better than i have ever done. The next day we were so sore we could barely walk..it was really funny.
Now I am back at school and I already feel slightly overwhelmed. I have been to all my classes and they seem pretty nice. My writing class sounds amazing but like a LOT of work. I don't know how well I will do with the challenge but I'm ready. I am taking Journalism again...[i was suppose to take it freshman year but i dropped it] so i have a new perspective about it and i think im going to like it. Socialism sounds alright...its just some dumb class i'm forced to take but the teacher seemed cool...so maybe that will help. Then romanticism in the arts totally SUCKS.. it is taught by some stuffy music school ass and sounds really super boring...so that should totoally suck. And media and society seems really neat..especially since my advisor is teaching it and he is awesome.
So it is Saturday night, 10:30 and I am sitting in my room being super lame. Ever since I have been back we have been really busy. As soon as I got back after I unpacked we went to see Harris, Dave, Barry, and Matt at their new house which is SO cute. That was tuesday, Wednesday we went to their house after our classes again, and then on thursday we went there again. On friday we had no class and went to the mall and to run errands for the guys. Then we went out and partied last night. today we ran more errands and then to some dinner that was on the food network. I am EXHAUSTED. So i opted for not going out and getting trashed casue i have tons of homework to do tomorrow.
To be totally honest...i don't even know if i want to be here. I haven't had time to process shit and i think right at this moment i finally am.
i wanna go home. I wanna be with my family even if we fight and aren't together all the time. I want to really go home..I want to be home when they start going through my house and they take it down. I feel really guilty attending some over priced college that probably won't even get me anywhere in life, where all i do is complain about class and homework and then get drunk. Its ridiculous. I'm just tired of pretending things are good and okay when they aren't cause its exhusting. Most days things actually are okay. but then something will happen to just set me off and put me in the awful mood where all i want to do is sleep or lay in my own bed or cry....and i'm totally sick of that feeling. i wish i never ever have to feel like that ever.
ugh..and i dont even have any tylenol pm.