Don't want to care, still it's sad

Jul 17, 2011 09:59

I haven’t been on the LJ much, but ryodapinlover  brought my attention to the comments in jeauthormeme  (Honestly I don’t like this kind of anon-meme) I don’t want to take it seriously or rather I don’t want to take it from negative sight. We are new to the moderating and maintaining a community, so we are still a baby trying to crawl. We are learning, so I want to take the comment in a positive way to improve what we’re lacking, still it makes me upset too.

Speaking as a community moderator, I let you know that we are well aware of the fact that there are too many pairing communities out there that already been there long before our community. There are PiN comm., RyoDa comm, JinDa comm., RyoJin comm., etc, so why the hell we still wanted to make the RyoDaPiN comm? People still posting all the fics in jent-fanfics, kattun-fanfics, wasurenaisa, so what is the purpose of our community?

Every person preference is different. There are people who only read one pairing, or maybe two pairings, or maybe one person centric pairings. There are people who read a group orientation fics (only pairings between the same group members), there are people who read all the fleeting fanfics, so it’s your choice if you want to join one community and not the other one. It’s your call to join only your pairings community and not care about other community at all, no one force you. Even if you did join all the communities, it was really your decision.

To make us different from other community, we organized all the monthly activities. Why we need to waste our time and hard work to think, to organize, to handle all the activities? It is mainly because we want the rare pairings get the attention from the world of fandom. How many people write RyoJin? It can be counted, I believe. How many people write PiDa?

We also thought of these activities for our community, so it’ll give some people a reason to write, giving other people some driving force to get out of writer block, giving the encouragement for people who want to write, write.

There’s a lot of big name authors out there, who is speaking and writing in English since they are young. Up until certain point, there must be some inferiority complex in the people whose their native language isn’t English (me included). We hope to give these people a platform to write, as an encouragement for them to write, to let the readers see that they can be a great author too, only they’re not so good with English and they need that space for improvement.

Everyone is learning, and there’s a lot of ways to learn, all we did is providing one of the ways. Some people can run already, they don’t need these kind of things, some people can walk already, they might think they don’t need something for the child, they search something bigger, something suitable for them to increase their capability and capacity, some people is learning to walk, they need someone to hold out their hand and help them, so why can't we be that hands that holding them.

I actually, don’t want to touch this matter, but personally as an author and also a reader, I am well aware that readers only want the best, a great piece of work to read, they probably won’t give a damn about the lousy fics (which maybe are judged solely by the grammar mistakes and bad structures; bad English rather than the story and the plot). This invisible standard (that these kind of readers set) is probably is still far from certain authors (new and non-English speakers, me included) that it makes them upset and unhappy but they can improve if only they are given the space to work on their weak points. Why don’t you be that someone who give them the space? You can hate it, don’t give a damn about it, but don’t be such a jerk and throw harsh word at them or do something that will make them sad when you don’t even judge them properly.

Lastly, I think, some people knew already, I have another username. For this same reason, I haven’t post any fic using this username, because I have decided to use this username only to maintain the community. And, since I already openly told what I’m thinking and feeling, I think it won’t be fair if I still keep secret about my other username. I am kindof_sweet . You can judge me however you want, because at certain point, I already stop caring about what people says. If you like my fics, I’m honestly happy. If you want to ban me after this revelation, yeah, go ahead, I can’t stop you. However I'm trully sorry for those who feel cheated after knowing yaoipinlover and kindof_sweet  is the same person.

I have my reasons when I create this username which I think the reasons are not relevant anymore, so I don’t have any reason to keep that username as a secret. I won’t be posting fic as yaoipinlover anymore, but paradise_sweet will always be yaoipinlover’s community because the reason I create the community in the first place is to put all my fics in a place. That’s the reason why I started posting my fics in the community not in my personal journals.

This probably will be my last (public) entry in this journal.

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