You just don't know...
I have a girlfriend...that I've been waiting for for a year. She's strong, she's witty, she's independent, she's beautiful, she's different and she's got flaw she's sorry for. She is everything I am not...including her family's acceptance of her. My family has said that they accept me...but they are only accepting half of me and half of the things they understand. It has taken years to get to this point in my life...it can only get better from here...
Why do I always feel so empty though...Like I'm a puppet on strings being forced to walk around being nice and helping people and not getting any in return. No one appreciates or even recognizes how hard i gotta work to keep everyone around me/important to me happy...they just compare it to their hardship and think "well, my problems are so much more significant than emily's..." So they won't listen to me...
Her and I are drowning in quicksand...and there are people rushing to save her...but no one is reaching out to me...
she won't leave me beind...there will always be someone behind me...and I promised I'd marry that person. I will. As soon as the quicksand dries up. As soon as my parents stop filling up my senses with shit and lies and dissapointment and disbelief.
Why do I always feel so empty though...Like I'm a puppet on strings being forced to walk around being nice and helping people and not getting any in return. No one appreciates or even recognizes how hard i gotta work to keep everyone around me/important to me happy...they just compare it to their hardship and think "well, my problems are so much more significant than emily's..." So they won't listen to me...
Her and I are drowning in quicksand...and there are people rushing to save her...but no one is reaching out to me...
she won't leave me beind...there will always be someone behind me...and I promised I'd marry that person. I will. As soon as the quicksand dries up. As soon as my parents stop filling up my senses with shit and lies and dissapointment and disbelief.