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so right now i feel down right miserable about the relationship...i thought i could hol dout for him and wait...but what if i cheat again cuz im so famous for it...but toms gone so hes not there to screw with m mind. it hurts to think that things got so bad. id make a horrible gf i get jealous so easily. i dont know if i could handle it anymore...i want to talk to him about ti but i feel like ill be lost completely. i dont want to lose him...i dont know y...i just think hes something that would keep me sane for a little. or is it the opposite. ha i got jealous when i found out he was with a girl or a while between the time we went to homecoming and now...i got jealous and i felt stupid cuz guess what i was too...with tom...i got jealous...maybe chris is just a safe choice...idk...but he isnt no guy is a safe chioce...lol...he didnt call me at all or try to contact me i had to call him...am i just expecting to much...i dont feel appericiated thats all i guess but all girls need it at least a little...y am i always treated like crap?