I had a dream my intestines knotted together. It hurt.
Ben has court tomorrow, i'm kind of really scared but then i'm pretty sure everything will be ok. Then after that there will be less stressing, hopefully. I probably won't sleep for awhile. I'm not sure if i should take something to knock me out.
Kitties will be relocated to their new foster home tomorrow. Every time i see a cat i get this little twinge of resentment and discomfort that i have to but them through all this again. It hurts me more then it hurts them, i'm pretty sure that's a good thing. It breaks my heart though. But at least finding a place for kitties will be off my back until August.
I'll be working like 3 nights a week in the next week or so, hopefully.
I just have to learn how to manage stress better. I was talking to my dad about school and everything and i told him i was waiting until i get into a less stressful situation. He said life is always stressful. Which makes me more stressed. I was i was a more carefree person sometimes. Like Ben. But then again that's good that we are together. So we can balance each other out. He yells at me for being so wigged out all the time. But then i get to yell at him for being a slacker.
You know what i really want. This is my dream right now;
To get a nice apartment in NOVA with Ben. Have a nice comfy bed we can sleep in with kitties every night. That would be so amazing. Have a good enough income to live comfortably. Have my own car and license so i can drive to work/school and back without shitting my pants. I want to make crazy necklaces to my hearts content and continue the Squidlicks saga. I will be comfortable then. I would be so happy. I swear.
That's a goal. It shall be reached.
I found this: http://www.flickr.com/photos/lushboxinc/531885592/in/set-72157600314552861/
I think that's what really drives me to make those silly things. People actually like them and give me money for them. I can't get over that. It makes my heart happy. I probably should build an ego though. That's how you make it big apparently.
I need to get my shit out of storage and turn into a onewoman sweatshop.
I’m growing out my hair it’s taking a long time. But I’m so committed to it.
Kitties will be relocated to their new foster home tomorrow. Every time i see a cat i get this little twinge of resentment and discomfort that i have to but them through all this again. It hurts me more then it hurts them, i'm pretty sure that's a good thing. It breaks my heart though. But at least finding a place for kitties will be off my back until August.
I'll be working like 3 nights a week in the next week or so, hopefully.
I just have to learn how to manage stress better. I was talking to my dad about school and everything and i told him i was waiting until i get into a less stressful situation. He said life is always stressful. Which makes me more stressed. I was i was a more carefree person sometimes. Like Ben. But then again that's good that we are together. So we can balance each other out. He yells at me for being so wigged out all the time. But then i get to yell at him for being a slacker.
You know what i really want. This is my dream right now;
To get a nice apartment in NOVA with Ben. Have a nice comfy bed we can sleep in with kitties every night. That would be so amazing. Have a good enough income to live comfortably. Have my own car and license so i can drive to work/school and back without shitting my pants. I want to make crazy necklaces to my hearts content and continue the Squidlicks saga. I will be comfortable then. I would be so happy. I swear.
That's a goal. It shall be reached.
I found this: http://www.flickr.com/photos/lushboxinc/531885592/in/set-72157600314552861/
I think that's what really drives me to make those silly things. People actually like them and give me money for them. I can't get over that. It makes my heart happy. I probably should build an ego though. That's how you make it big apparently.
I need to get my shit out of storage and turn into a onewoman sweatshop.
I’m growing out my hair it’s taking a long time. But I’m so committed to it.