summer and life in general..
as i sit here in my chair staring into the soft, phosphorescent glow of my computer screen reflecting upon years past, ive come to realize that i have a pretty good life. there are things that get me frustrated, things that get me upset, and things that downright get me depressed.. but after all is said and done, there isnt a lot i can complain about
lauras gone for school, but ill see her again, i know i will, we love each other as much as anyone can and we have to be together, i feel like nothing without her.. but i know this is a good experience for her, living on her own and such. she has friends there and is never opposed to making new ones. its a second home to her now and it would be selfish of me to be resentful of that fact. i may get jealous of everyone up there, especially her roommates, but the fact is, i know shes happy there, i know she likes it and im happy that shes happy.. i guess i just have to work on expressing that a little better, not always sound depressed and stuff
i dont want to sound judgemental or cold hearted or anything, but i think this is the summer i found out who my true friends were. the ones that would stick by me through thick and thin. and i cant say im too disappointed with the results. laura, well of course shes my friend, shes my best friend on a level no one else can succumb, i can talk to her about anything and not feel uncomfortable about it, shes everything to me. chaz has always been one of my better friends and i think its common knowledge that hes grown into my best friend, hes always been there and i think he kinda has a similar personna as me; but we cant rule out johnny, weve had our arguments, but i feel that if we can suck it up and say "forget it" that there isnt any stopping us. johanna and i have kinda become better friends over the summer i think, planning some surprises and i think hanging out more than usual, seeing her at a lot more places, im happy, shes a cool person, albeit a frustrating one cuz she apologises for things she shouldnt, i wouldnt trade her for anyone. kellie seems like a really cool person, we havent got a lot of chances to talk because she really doesnt talk a whole lot (and johnny hogs her all the time) but im glad her and johnny started going out and he introduced her to "the group." im gonna group diane and jackie together because i dont think ive really seen one without the other, which isnt bad because theyre both awesome, i had a really good time with both of them on the road rally (TEAM CLUTCH!!) with laura and deegan, which was one of my favorite event this summer (i have to give my props to johnny, kellie and marx, they really did do an awesome job with the clues and stuff).
but, as always, it seems theres those friends that you wish you just had a little more time with: dan is a really cool guy, ive always liked hanging out with him, he can be a bit rowdy at times, but a true friend til the end. rach seemed too busy this summer to do a lot of hanging out, she had a couple jobs and summer courses to tackle, but she seems determined and who am i to shun her for it? sean, wow, hes always a good time, always laughing and just such a laid back guy, i wish we could hang out more, hes so cool, albeit extremely conservative.. i forgive him :) puzz, i cant even begin with him, hes so out there sometimes, but hilarious nevertheless, the times with him are priceless and hes always there for a good, hearty laugh. i would have to say sara is one of my biggest friend casualties, we used to be such good friends, we would talk online a lot and went to get ice cream every once in awhile just to talk about life in general, but it just kinda faded away.. i really dont know when exactly, but i know shes made new friends and im really happy for her and her boyfriend, she seems so happy with him. maybe somewhere down the road well become good friends again, you never know.
my family is finally all together again, pauls done with his summer service in the yogi bear army. i think he really liked working there, he seemed to take to it fairly easily. plus he had his fishing. i think its a good first job and (while its not really work) good experience in responsibility and all that. o, and im making him go to at least one dance before hes done with high school.. even if i have to drag him to it! my mom and dad are cool, theyre actually a lot more lenient than i thought at first, usually i just have to let them know where i am and theyre cool with it. cant ask for much else i guess.
with school rapidly approaching i guess im nervous mostly.. i dont know what to expect with my classes, i hope theyre challenging but im focused enough to get by unscathed. i want this to be a good year grade wise, its gonna be one of my toughest years, but i think im ready, im gonna crack down and study however much it takes. and laura said she would help with anything i need help with (did i mention i love her??) i guess im just gonna try my hardest and see where that takes me, i cant really do much else i guess
so i guess this makes up for weeks of not updating, i hope you all enjoy and good luck with school and everything, if ure reading this right now.. lets hang out sometime soon :)
lauras gone for school, but ill see her again, i know i will, we love each other as much as anyone can and we have to be together, i feel like nothing without her.. but i know this is a good experience for her, living on her own and such. she has friends there and is never opposed to making new ones. its a second home to her now and it would be selfish of me to be resentful of that fact. i may get jealous of everyone up there, especially her roommates, but the fact is, i know shes happy there, i know she likes it and im happy that shes happy.. i guess i just have to work on expressing that a little better, not always sound depressed and stuff
i dont want to sound judgemental or cold hearted or anything, but i think this is the summer i found out who my true friends were. the ones that would stick by me through thick and thin. and i cant say im too disappointed with the results. laura, well of course shes my friend, shes my best friend on a level no one else can succumb, i can talk to her about anything and not feel uncomfortable about it, shes everything to me. chaz has always been one of my better friends and i think its common knowledge that hes grown into my best friend, hes always been there and i think he kinda has a similar personna as me; but we cant rule out johnny, weve had our arguments, but i feel that if we can suck it up and say "forget it" that there isnt any stopping us. johanna and i have kinda become better friends over the summer i think, planning some surprises and i think hanging out more than usual, seeing her at a lot more places, im happy, shes a cool person, albeit a frustrating one cuz she apologises for things she shouldnt, i wouldnt trade her for anyone. kellie seems like a really cool person, we havent got a lot of chances to talk because she really doesnt talk a whole lot (and johnny hogs her all the time) but im glad her and johnny started going out and he introduced her to "the group." im gonna group diane and jackie together because i dont think ive really seen one without the other, which isnt bad because theyre both awesome, i had a really good time with both of them on the road rally (TEAM CLUTCH!!) with laura and deegan, which was one of my favorite event this summer (i have to give my props to johnny, kellie and marx, they really did do an awesome job with the clues and stuff).
but, as always, it seems theres those friends that you wish you just had a little more time with: dan is a really cool guy, ive always liked hanging out with him, he can be a bit rowdy at times, but a true friend til the end. rach seemed too busy this summer to do a lot of hanging out, she had a couple jobs and summer courses to tackle, but she seems determined and who am i to shun her for it? sean, wow, hes always a good time, always laughing and just such a laid back guy, i wish we could hang out more, hes so cool, albeit extremely conservative.. i forgive him :) puzz, i cant even begin with him, hes so out there sometimes, but hilarious nevertheless, the times with him are priceless and hes always there for a good, hearty laugh. i would have to say sara is one of my biggest friend casualties, we used to be such good friends, we would talk online a lot and went to get ice cream every once in awhile just to talk about life in general, but it just kinda faded away.. i really dont know when exactly, but i know shes made new friends and im really happy for her and her boyfriend, she seems so happy with him. maybe somewhere down the road well become good friends again, you never know.
my family is finally all together again, pauls done with his summer service in the yogi bear army. i think he really liked working there, he seemed to take to it fairly easily. plus he had his fishing. i think its a good first job and (while its not really work) good experience in responsibility and all that. o, and im making him go to at least one dance before hes done with high school.. even if i have to drag him to it! my mom and dad are cool, theyre actually a lot more lenient than i thought at first, usually i just have to let them know where i am and theyre cool with it. cant ask for much else i guess.
with school rapidly approaching i guess im nervous mostly.. i dont know what to expect with my classes, i hope theyre challenging but im focused enough to get by unscathed. i want this to be a good year grade wise, its gonna be one of my toughest years, but i think im ready, im gonna crack down and study however much it takes. and laura said she would help with anything i need help with (did i mention i love her??) i guess im just gonna try my hardest and see where that takes me, i cant really do much else i guess
so i guess this makes up for weeks of not updating, i hope you all enjoy and good luck with school and everything, if ure reading this right now.. lets hang out sometime soon :)