i just dont know anymore..
as the title says.. i really just dont know anymore...
this whole dentistry thing is starting to get out of control, i just cant take all the work and stuff that is required of this profession, the schooling part of it at least.. it may sound like im looking for an easy way out, but i really do want to become a dentist, i just dont know if i can... i dont think i have the capability to handle the workload now or in the future, its just getting to be overwhelming..
i miss laura so much and it hasnt even been two weeks yet, to top it all off, each day i dont see her i get worse and worse.. i just cant stop thinking about her.. people have asked (some jokingly, some not) if i was gonna marry her.. my answer to them at this point is a "yes." i cant describe the feeling i get when im around her, its like everything is just right in the world, all my worries drift away, everything bad that has happened to me kinda drifts off into the background, and i just feel like a million bucks.. i think shes the one, my one, my missing puzzle piece..
im beginning to feel the need to branch out into new friends.. this DOES NOT mean i want to get rid of my old friends, i love all of u waaay too much to move on from u, its just like chaz, drake, rach, dan, diane, etc. are all off at college and its just johnny, sara, and i here (not that theres anything wrong with that).. its just like when im up at school i only know a few people and it gets kinda boring.. its tough to just socialize with people there cuz im mostly there for classes.. i dont get much time to meet new people, its too far away for me to just drive up there to hang out and i dont drink, so its not like im a big socializer.. i just want to meet new people..
i wish i could focus more on homework.. like i know i have to do it, and like i want to, but i just cant focus on it.. even when i start doing it my mind drifts all over the place and it takes me awhile to do it.. especially when studying or reading.. thats horrible... its not like i dont want to do it.. i just cant sometimes.... (p.s. laura, if u read this, it does not mean i want to talk any less, i need the talks, it keeps me going a lot of the time)
now as a disclaimer to anyone that reads this.. this is just whats running through my head right now, im not depressed or anything, im just sitting here thinking about everything wrong right now.. i wish i could fix it, i really do.. i just dont have the power... please, if u can offer any advice or just comments on any of these things, it would be much appreciated, and thanks to all my loyal readers
this whole dentistry thing is starting to get out of control, i just cant take all the work and stuff that is required of this profession, the schooling part of it at least.. it may sound like im looking for an easy way out, but i really do want to become a dentist, i just dont know if i can... i dont think i have the capability to handle the workload now or in the future, its just getting to be overwhelming..
i miss laura so much and it hasnt even been two weeks yet, to top it all off, each day i dont see her i get worse and worse.. i just cant stop thinking about her.. people have asked (some jokingly, some not) if i was gonna marry her.. my answer to them at this point is a "yes." i cant describe the feeling i get when im around her, its like everything is just right in the world, all my worries drift away, everything bad that has happened to me kinda drifts off into the background, and i just feel like a million bucks.. i think shes the one, my one, my missing puzzle piece..
im beginning to feel the need to branch out into new friends.. this DOES NOT mean i want to get rid of my old friends, i love all of u waaay too much to move on from u, its just like chaz, drake, rach, dan, diane, etc. are all off at college and its just johnny, sara, and i here (not that theres anything wrong with that).. its just like when im up at school i only know a few people and it gets kinda boring.. its tough to just socialize with people there cuz im mostly there for classes.. i dont get much time to meet new people, its too far away for me to just drive up there to hang out and i dont drink, so its not like im a big socializer.. i just want to meet new people..
i wish i could focus more on homework.. like i know i have to do it, and like i want to, but i just cant focus on it.. even when i start doing it my mind drifts all over the place and it takes me awhile to do it.. especially when studying or reading.. thats horrible... its not like i dont want to do it.. i just cant sometimes.... (p.s. laura, if u read this, it does not mean i want to talk any less, i need the talks, it keeps me going a lot of the time)
now as a disclaimer to anyone that reads this.. this is just whats running through my head right now, im not depressed or anything, im just sitting here thinking about everything wrong right now.. i wish i could fix it, i really do.. i just dont have the power... please, if u can offer any advice or just comments on any of these things, it would be much appreciated, and thanks to all my loyal readers