E X H A U S T E D .....
wow... okay let's see since the last time i updated i :
injured my back = ( .... (possible fracture, flipped disk/or herniated disk-meaning NO physical ACTIVITY at ALL... = unhappy and very anxious/overstressed me...)
went to an amazing concert
realized how good i have it ... backpain and all
cried myself to sleep for the last week to do serious pain ... and my legs going numb...
too many of my dreams have come true...
they are too real most of the tiime...
without music i think i die a little inside
without writing (which i can rarely do now... ) i feel as though i can no longer speak...
without the people who matter most to me i would no longer be truly living ...sure i'd be alive but thats no way to live
i miss people as they sit right nxt to me sometimes...or when they're miles away in their own world
i have sersiouly gotten over a lot of things that really hurt and that were done malicisouly or innocently -- regardless and i let go of a lot of emotional strife... it was kinda time to move on from that ...
i worry every day about my sister but i dont get angry bc of it... im really happy that i care so much ....
i dont feel numb inside as i have in the past... its been kinda warming sensation thanks to the amazing people who are now huge influences and inspirations to me...
i enjoy being able to discuss things and i regret that some people who used to confide in me no longer view it as a good idea but i cannot change that ...
i love my whore! my redhead! my thesbian! my lover! my crazian! ... basically everyone ... = )
i love long sexy talks and walks and drives !
Happy Thanksgiving y'll --- i'm off to CALI
PEACE <3 ash
injured my back = ( .... (possible fracture, flipped disk/or herniated disk-meaning NO physical ACTIVITY at ALL... = unhappy and very anxious/overstressed me...)
went to an amazing concert
realized how good i have it ... backpain and all
cried myself to sleep for the last week to do serious pain ... and my legs going numb...
too many of my dreams have come true...
they are too real most of the tiime...
without music i think i die a little inside
without writing (which i can rarely do now... ) i feel as though i can no longer speak...
without the people who matter most to me i would no longer be truly living ...sure i'd be alive but thats no way to live
i miss people as they sit right nxt to me sometimes...or when they're miles away in their own world
i have sersiouly gotten over a lot of things that really hurt and that were done malicisouly or innocently -- regardless and i let go of a lot of emotional strife... it was kinda time to move on from that ...
i worry every day about my sister but i dont get angry bc of it... im really happy that i care so much ....
i dont feel numb inside as i have in the past... its been kinda warming sensation thanks to the amazing people who are now huge influences and inspirations to me...
i enjoy being able to discuss things and i regret that some people who used to confide in me no longer view it as a good idea but i cannot change that ...
i love my whore! my redhead! my thesbian! my lover! my crazian! ... basically everyone ... = )
i love long sexy talks and walks and drives !
Happy Thanksgiving y'll --- i'm off to CALI
PEACE <3 ash