Shifting Courses
I can still remember that afternoon when I decided on what college course to take. I was sitting in front of the computer, surfing the net, waiting for news of the list of graduates and honor students. Then suddenly, I received text messages from my friends telling me of their good news. Some told me they were honor students, some told they were not but they were able to march. I did not bother seeing the list of graduates and honor students because I was positive that I will a receive a diploma.
But something struck me. They graduated high school with honors while I did not. To tell you honestly, I felt bitter - bitter towards myself. I hated myself for not doing well enough. This is the reason why high school graduation wasn't memorable for me. Same afternoon, I wrote an entry. I vented my feelings on the computer, telling myself that I must be successful in the future. Right then, I immediately decided to take up Law. But before Law, I must take a pre-law course. So then I decided to take Accountancy. Truthfully, one of the reasons why I took Accountancy is because of the salary. It's easy to get rich with that course. All the more if I take Law, right? So yes, riches was one my goal in life that afternoon. Also, my scholarship only accepted Accountancy as my course so I guess I need to take it then. Business Administration was my first choice. I thought about it and then asked myself, "If I'm going to take BA, why not take Accountancy instead?" On April 19, I was enrolled.
The following month, my doubts started to creep in. I kept on asking myself if I made the right choice. Perhaps I convinced myself that I did. And I realized that my personality and the course don't match. Accountancy, for me, is for the introverts. I'm the opposite, and I don't like routines. Being a CPA, yes, is boring because you just sit on a table and make sure the debit balances the credit. I knew this all along but still, I pursued because I'll be taking up Law anyway. The course certainly doesn't fit my personality. Then one night in May, I was in Mcdo with my friends. A question was raised: "Fulfillment or riches?" I silently answered riches. All of 'em answered fulfillment. Then I was reminded that the reason why I took Accountancy is that of the huge compensation.
Now, another semester is almost to an end. And I still doubt my course. Is this really what I want? I don't think so. Is this really my passion? No, certainly not. I just convinced myself. Will I be happy with this? No.
I'm planning to shift. That's what this post is all about. I'm planning to shift to Economics. But first, I must ask for permission from my parents. And of course, I don't forget the Lord in all this. It's His plan for me anyway. If my He wills it, then He wills it.