so many things
so many things are going on... family wise.. on my dad's side.. sumthing happened and now i'm just very sad. constantly finding tears dropping from my eyes while i seem so emotionless on the face. On my mom's side.. one of my aunts is getting surgery..
My sis is gone for a month.. and now i'm left alone to deal...
it's amazing how much a person thinks when they have quiet time all alone.
on the other hand.. my friendship is getting better, though another thing is just getting more and more complicated. I feel very loved by most of my friends. they are here to give me emotional support. they cheer me up with chocolates. they cheer me up with cards. we're still cracking jokes, though i find it harder to laugh as hard as i used to. they are constantly checking to see if i'm alright. My arm is always held or linked when they're here with me. they are asking to spend more time with me out of skool. we're having long talks. I'm getting lots of hugs.
However, i feel so guilty when i talk to one of my sweetest friends. i didn't tell her sumthing i think she should know.. i know she will be very disappointed. Despite that, i feel i have to tell her one way or the other. It's going to be hard. but it's going to get worse and she will feel so excluded. I hope that this problem will just solvve by itself.
i dunno what to do.. i'm overwhelmed by the many problems i have.. i dun't know how to deal.. and i don't know how to face it.. =(
AT skool... one of those teachers is getting scarier and scarier.. the stares.. the possible "stalking", the watching.. so freaked out.....
My sis is gone for a month.. and now i'm left alone to deal...
it's amazing how much a person thinks when they have quiet time all alone.
on the other hand.. my friendship is getting better, though another thing is just getting more and more complicated. I feel very loved by most of my friends. they are here to give me emotional support. they cheer me up with chocolates. they cheer me up with cards. we're still cracking jokes, though i find it harder to laugh as hard as i used to. they are constantly checking to see if i'm alright. My arm is always held or linked when they're here with me. they are asking to spend more time with me out of skool. we're having long talks. I'm getting lots of hugs.
However, i feel so guilty when i talk to one of my sweetest friends. i didn't tell her sumthing i think she should know.. i know she will be very disappointed. Despite that, i feel i have to tell her one way or the other. It's going to be hard. but it's going to get worse and she will feel so excluded. I hope that this problem will just solvve by itself.
i dunno what to do.. i'm overwhelmed by the many problems i have.. i dun't know how to deal.. and i don't know how to face it.. =(
AT skool... one of those teachers is getting scarier and scarier.. the stares.. the possible "stalking", the watching.. so freaked out.....