Your designer heart still beats with common blood
I promised an update, so here it is. Oh, it's been just a bit crazy these last few weeks. I have much to talk about, so this will probably be another long entry. Sorry. ^^; I really need to focus on updating this more frequently. Now where to start first...
Let's start with movies. I got my movie in the mail on Saturday. The cover looks like a porno, which just makes me laugh. The only way to explain this movie is that it's the best worst movie you'll ever see. The movie which I'm referring to is The Gay Bed and Breakfast...of Terror.
Yeah. The title alone gives it epic points of awesome. Extremely bad acting, really bad plot (but I called it! Ha!), very crappy effects. It is just so epic in it's ridiculousness that it's amazing. Honestly, it's a must see. Though the unedited version was a little, haha, awkward, but still so awesome. Best quote in the world... "He's the illegitimate love child of one hundred Republican convention delegates!" Just so awesome! Lols.
The next movie is Repo the Genetic Opera. It has pretty much taken over my life. I love bizarre stuff, and this is really bizarre rock opera. It's brilliant. Grave Robber, who has been renamed Rave Robber thanks to wide screen and Kelli's tiny tv, is my favorite. It fits regardless, considering Zydrate looks like a blue glowstick. Heh! Mag (Sarah Brightman) is really awesome too, both her eyes and voice. Nathan's voice is amazing; I love Shiloh's character and voice. And she's the Carmen girl from Spy kids, which is really awesome. Paris Hilton is actually a fairly decent singer. Pavi makes me laugh. The entire movie is just so genius. The movie style is gorgeous; the lyrics are all amazing. Repo's outrageous and witty and in your face and original and just so brilliant. Seriously, watch it. You won't be disappointed. I need to buy it. Lols.
Oh, so I've rediscovered my love for Pushing Daisies. I absolutely adore this show! It's so cute and original and adorable! Ned and Chuck are so cute! Ned is so sweet and Chuck has this quirky personality to her. Seriously, they've mastered the whole looking into each others eyes and you can visibly see how much they love each other. It's so romantic and their dynamic is so bittersweet, since Ned can't touch her because she'll die instantly. "I'd kiss you if it wouldn't kill me." T-T I love how they work around that though. So interesting and whimsical and adorable! I just wish it wasn't canceled because of the writer's strike! Seriously, I think I lost a piece of my heart when I found out. It's just so damn cute. Damn you writer's strike! I know I got Dr. Horrible from you, but I lost Pushing Daisies and that's just cruel!!! Wah. Rip, PD. You're still in my heart always. I need to buy the seasons.
Hm, what next? How about I get the school stuff out of the way next? Firstly, finally sent in my OSU application. I really hope I get accepted. As much as I'll miss my friends here, I know I'll be happier at a real school with a real campus. I also turned in another job application to be a tutor for elementary kids at the library. I have a lot of experience working with kids, so I hope they call me back. I think I'll call them tomorrow and see how my resume is doing. Things have been going fairly well lately. Stats is totally kicking my ass, but I'm managing my other classes fairly well for the most part. I wasn't sure about this whole nineteen credit hour thing, but I'm getting used to it. It's just a lot more work than I'm used to doing. Bleh. Oh, and I hope Kelli gets into cooking school. It's really time she did something for herself and not following others expectations. She would love it and be so great at it. You can do it, Kelli. Good luck. ^^ I'm rooting for you. That diner is going to be amazing. Speaking of, we should practice some more cooking skillz during Spring Beak. :3
Oh, so my roomie is totally crazy. I love the irony of her snorting crushed pills while watching Celebrity Rehab. Ridiculous. That and Sober House are the only shows she watches. It's a bit contradictory. I also recently found out that she's been stealing expensive perfumes and stuff for drug money, which is really not good. I think that's what's finally made me decide to email my Ra tomorrow. I mean, smoking is just hurting herself, and I can deal with her annoying tendencies, but the stealing is wrong. I'm uncomfortable living with her and I just don't want to deal with it anymore. Sorry, Liz.
Anyway, next thing. So, there's this auction thing for a prom fundraiser that I somehow got myself into. I'm getting auctioned off at Bounce so we can get some money for prom. It's really...odd. I'm trying really hard not to think of it as selling myself for money. >.< Basically, people are going to bet and they win a "free lunch/dinner" with me. T-T I don't really want to do it. The more I think about it, the more it unnerves me. But there was only like three people doing it and they were begging for people to do it since we need the money so we can put on a good prom. I'm probably just over-thinking it, but it just makes me uncomfortable. I mean, really, it's just kinda odd. It might be fun, but I'm still nervous. I just have to keep thinking positive. I just get a little shy about things like this; it's going to be awkward. Argh. Why do I put myself through this stuff? Lol. All well. No backing out now. I just hope the person that I have lunch with is nice and easy to talk to so it won't be all weird. I'll be happier when this is over.
Okay, time to get to the most exciting part of the last few weeks. This Saturday and the Saturday of two weeks ago have been simply amazing. There was nonstop laughing the entire time. Rhyan and I are quite possibly the same person. xD It's almost creepy how much we have in common. It's fun though. It's been great. We built forts and rolled down hallways and did the most random stuff ever. There are so many jokes now, I don't even think I remember them all. Good times though, for real. Catapults, poptarts, rolling, donuts, nasty feet, woodchippers, goggles, MAKAAAA, Ex...<<, Manfred, zombies, cripples, father time, beating up exams, "what's is this?!"... And so many more. Seriously, we get into the most ridiculous conversations. Ever. xD;;;
So, I really did not expect this to happen. I wasn't looking for it, wasn't interested in it, but I think maybe I found the person who's changing my mind about this whole no relationship thing. Rhyan asked me to dinner during Spring Break. I was completely stunned. I didn't think he liked me that way until I really started thinking about it. We have talked everyday, all day long since the convention. He actually drove up here from Columbus twice in the last three weeks just to hang. Sometimes I'm a little oblivious to things, I think. I'm not going to lie, I did start to like him at the con - there was potential. Then I really started to like him after we really started talking. And part of me kept saying, no you don't, no relationships, stop it, this is a mistake. I can't help it though - there's something there and I can't ignore it. I'm a little scared to start something with someone again though. I keep running it through my head to see if there's any consequences to this because I'm done making mistakes. I've never really been happy in any of my relationships, and I dunno.... I guess I'm just hesitant...nervous about it. I can't help I'm insecure though. I don't want to get hurt again like before; I don't think I can handle that, not again. And I don't want him to get bored with me after a week and then it's over. For once I just want to be on equal footing with someone, know I can trust them and I can actually enjoy being with that person. I know this is maybe all wishful thinking. We're not together, we're just going to dinner soon. But there's potential, isn't there? Unless I'm reading him and this whole situation wrong, which may be possible.For some reason I don't seem to think clearly about this stuff. I think maybe I'm willing to give this a chance though if I am reading him correctly. And if I'm not, then we'll be good friends and that'll be the end of it. I guess we'll see.
On that note though, I really miss Nick. I wish he had been able to come up on Saturday too. I feel like we haven't been able to talk like we used to lately and it makes me sad. I hope it has nothing to do with this thing with Rhyan and he's just busy or something. No one could ever replace my bro. He's so important to me; I love him. I don't want him to feel like he doesn't matter to me, because he does so much. I just miss him. *pout* I can't wait til Spring Break because we'll finally get to hang and sit down and talk about everything we've been wanting to talk about. There's so much to talk about, it'll take all night, but I can't wait! It'll be so great. Hehe. ^^ Also, I still feel really bad about this whole thing with Kristi. I didn't mean to give her the wrong impression of me and I feel terrible that I hurt her feelings, even if it was unintentionally. It's just a huge misunderstanding and I really just want to talk to her so we can straighten it out, but Nick says to wait and let her come to me. I really wish I could have talked to her right away though to clear things up so she wouldn't have had to feel bad for all this time. Sigh. Poor Kristi. I hope we can be friends again; I hate this.
Hm, anything else? I'm sure there's more, but I'm getting tired and I should probably get to sleep. Long day of classes tomorrow.
Let's start with movies. I got my movie in the mail on Saturday. The cover looks like a porno, which just makes me laugh. The only way to explain this movie is that it's the best worst movie you'll ever see. The movie which I'm referring to is The Gay Bed and Breakfast...of Terror.
Yeah. The title alone gives it epic points of awesome. Extremely bad acting, really bad plot (but I called it! Ha!), very crappy effects. It is just so epic in it's ridiculousness that it's amazing. Honestly, it's a must see. Though the unedited version was a little, haha, awkward, but still so awesome. Best quote in the world... "He's the illegitimate love child of one hundred Republican convention delegates!" Just so awesome! Lols.
The next movie is Repo the Genetic Opera. It has pretty much taken over my life. I love bizarre stuff, and this is really bizarre rock opera. It's brilliant. Grave Robber, who has been renamed Rave Robber thanks to wide screen and Kelli's tiny tv, is my favorite. It fits regardless, considering Zydrate looks like a blue glowstick. Heh! Mag (Sarah Brightman) is really awesome too, both her eyes and voice. Nathan's voice is amazing; I love Shiloh's character and voice. And she's the Carmen girl from Spy kids, which is really awesome. Paris Hilton is actually a fairly decent singer. Pavi makes me laugh. The entire movie is just so genius. The movie style is gorgeous; the lyrics are all amazing. Repo's outrageous and witty and in your face and original and just so brilliant. Seriously, watch it. You won't be disappointed. I need to buy it. Lols.
Oh, so I've rediscovered my love for Pushing Daisies. I absolutely adore this show! It's so cute and original and adorable! Ned and Chuck are so cute! Ned is so sweet and Chuck has this quirky personality to her. Seriously, they've mastered the whole looking into each others eyes and you can visibly see how much they love each other. It's so romantic and their dynamic is so bittersweet, since Ned can't touch her because she'll die instantly. "I'd kiss you if it wouldn't kill me." T-T I love how they work around that though. So interesting and whimsical and adorable! I just wish it wasn't canceled because of the writer's strike! Seriously, I think I lost a piece of my heart when I found out. It's just so damn cute. Damn you writer's strike! I know I got Dr. Horrible from you, but I lost Pushing Daisies and that's just cruel!!! Wah. Rip, PD. You're still in my heart always. I need to buy the seasons.
Hm, what next? How about I get the school stuff out of the way next? Firstly, finally sent in my OSU application. I really hope I get accepted. As much as I'll miss my friends here, I know I'll be happier at a real school with a real campus. I also turned in another job application to be a tutor for elementary kids at the library. I have a lot of experience working with kids, so I hope they call me back. I think I'll call them tomorrow and see how my resume is doing. Things have been going fairly well lately. Stats is totally kicking my ass, but I'm managing my other classes fairly well for the most part. I wasn't sure about this whole nineteen credit hour thing, but I'm getting used to it. It's just a lot more work than I'm used to doing. Bleh. Oh, and I hope Kelli gets into cooking school. It's really time she did something for herself and not following others expectations. She would love it and be so great at it. You can do it, Kelli. Good luck. ^^ I'm rooting for you. That diner is going to be amazing. Speaking of, we should practice some more cooking skillz during Spring Beak. :3
Oh, so my roomie is totally crazy. I love the irony of her snorting crushed pills while watching Celebrity Rehab. Ridiculous. That and Sober House are the only shows she watches. It's a bit contradictory. I also recently found out that she's been stealing expensive perfumes and stuff for drug money, which is really not good. I think that's what's finally made me decide to email my Ra tomorrow. I mean, smoking is just hurting herself, and I can deal with her annoying tendencies, but the stealing is wrong. I'm uncomfortable living with her and I just don't want to deal with it anymore. Sorry, Liz.
Anyway, next thing. So, there's this auction thing for a prom fundraiser that I somehow got myself into. I'm getting auctioned off at Bounce so we can get some money for prom. It's really...odd. I'm trying really hard not to think of it as selling myself for money. >.< Basically, people are going to bet and they win a "free lunch/dinner" with me. T-T I don't really want to do it. The more I think about it, the more it unnerves me. But there was only like three people doing it and they were begging for people to do it since we need the money so we can put on a good prom. I'm probably just over-thinking it, but it just makes me uncomfortable. I mean, really, it's just kinda odd. It might be fun, but I'm still nervous. I just have to keep thinking positive. I just get a little shy about things like this; it's going to be awkward. Argh. Why do I put myself through this stuff? Lol. All well. No backing out now. I just hope the person that I have lunch with is nice and easy to talk to so it won't be all weird. I'll be happier when this is over.
Okay, time to get to the most exciting part of the last few weeks. This Saturday and the Saturday of two weeks ago have been simply amazing. There was nonstop laughing the entire time. Rhyan and I are quite possibly the same person. xD It's almost creepy how much we have in common. It's fun though. It's been great. We built forts and rolled down hallways and did the most random stuff ever. There are so many jokes now, I don't even think I remember them all. Good times though, for real. Catapults, poptarts, rolling, donuts, nasty feet, woodchippers, goggles, MAKAAAA, Ex...<<, Manfred, zombies, cripples, father time, beating up exams, "what's is this?!"... And so many more. Seriously, we get into the most ridiculous conversations. Ever. xD;;;
So, I really did not expect this to happen. I wasn't looking for it, wasn't interested in it, but I think maybe I found the person who's changing my mind about this whole no relationship thing. Rhyan asked me to dinner during Spring Break. I was completely stunned. I didn't think he liked me that way until I really started thinking about it. We have talked everyday, all day long since the convention. He actually drove up here from Columbus twice in the last three weeks just to hang. Sometimes I'm a little oblivious to things, I think. I'm not going to lie, I did start to like him at the con - there was potential. Then I really started to like him after we really started talking. And part of me kept saying, no you don't, no relationships, stop it, this is a mistake. I can't help it though - there's something there and I can't ignore it. I'm a little scared to start something with someone again though. I keep running it through my head to see if there's any consequences to this because I'm done making mistakes. I've never really been happy in any of my relationships, and I dunno.... I guess I'm just hesitant...nervous about it. I can't help I'm insecure though. I don't want to get hurt again like before; I don't think I can handle that, not again. And I don't want him to get bored with me after a week and then it's over. For once I just want to be on equal footing with someone, know I can trust them and I can actually enjoy being with that person. I know this is maybe all wishful thinking. We're not together, we're just going to dinner soon. But there's potential, isn't there? Unless I'm reading him and this whole situation wrong, which may be possible.For some reason I don't seem to think clearly about this stuff. I think maybe I'm willing to give this a chance though if I am reading him correctly. And if I'm not, then we'll be good friends and that'll be the end of it. I guess we'll see.
On that note though, I really miss Nick. I wish he had been able to come up on Saturday too. I feel like we haven't been able to talk like we used to lately and it makes me sad. I hope it has nothing to do with this thing with Rhyan and he's just busy or something. No one could ever replace my bro. He's so important to me; I love him. I don't want him to feel like he doesn't matter to me, because he does so much. I just miss him. *pout* I can't wait til Spring Break because we'll finally get to hang and sit down and talk about everything we've been wanting to talk about. There's so much to talk about, it'll take all night, but I can't wait! It'll be so great. Hehe. ^^ Also, I still feel really bad about this whole thing with Kristi. I didn't mean to give her the wrong impression of me and I feel terrible that I hurt her feelings, even if it was unintentionally. It's just a huge misunderstanding and I really just want to talk to her so we can straighten it out, but Nick says to wait and let her come to me. I really wish I could have talked to her right away though to clear things up so she wouldn't have had to feel bad for all this time. Sigh. Poor Kristi. I hope we can be friends again; I hate this.
Hm, anything else? I'm sure there's more, but I'm getting tired and I should probably get to sleep. Long day of classes tomorrow.