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I've come to the realization today that I'm very stupid. Actually, I've known for awhile, but I've just hid it well. And to be more accurate, I should say that I've made some very stupid choices in the past few years. And right now it feels like they are all attacking my brain at once, to a point near emotional overload.
Does it make me a bad person that I'm don't really feel bad for him that his girlfriend might be pregnant? It is, after all, entirely his fault. After that last major fight they had about three months ago, he should have dropped her then. It was very close, but everybody knew he'd puss out. And he did. She's his first piece of ass, and he loves her for it, even when she treats him like shit (I call it the Ferris Bueler [sp?] syndrome, since Ferris gave me the line).
Anyways, I have too much on my mental plate to add his to it. I need to do some restructuring in my life, and while I'm at it, figure out how to get this stuff out of my head. It only pops up when things up there are quiet. And with things the way they are in my life right now, it's pretty quiet up there, so my mind misses no opportunities to remind me how I was so stupid to do this, or punish me for doing that. Yadda yadda yadda. I'm not going to get into them, since they will prolly bore you (and make me feel bad).
I'm outie y0's.
Does it make me a bad person that I'm don't really feel bad for him that his girlfriend might be pregnant? It is, after all, entirely his fault. After that last major fight they had about three months ago, he should have dropped her then. It was very close, but everybody knew he'd puss out. And he did. She's his first piece of ass, and he loves her for it, even when she treats him like shit (I call it the Ferris Bueler [sp?] syndrome, since Ferris gave me the line).
Anyways, I have too much on my mental plate to add his to it. I need to do some restructuring in my life, and while I'm at it, figure out how to get this stuff out of my head. It only pops up when things up there are quiet. And with things the way they are in my life right now, it's pretty quiet up there, so my mind misses no opportunities to remind me how I was so stupid to do this, or punish me for doing that. Yadda yadda yadda. I'm not going to get into them, since they will prolly bore you (and make me feel bad).
I'm outie y0's.