yep, first day...
first day of relief.. its like this is the first time i’ve been able to relax and live a day for weeks.. i mean literally live a day… eat, sleep, laugh, rest normally.. i’m studying as a second year animation student and i’m telling you its no joke even though i’m only in my sophomore year x_x requirements are passed and met even though i wasn’t that much satisfied with my works… crap it, dont want to think about it anymore. i am glad as hell its all done. this year hasnt been that good to me TT.TT sadly… the first half was somehow bad due to freakin events..unforgettable events..family-related and i hate it… this second half is school and friends-related..its life and i aint complaining..hehe i’m just hoping 2010 will be better…but i wont expect though…dont wanna be hurt~
---- with my friends„i really dont know what to say to them now…i wanna help and i’m giving all i can to help but i really cant suggest what they can/should do at the status of their relationship T.T i feel useless..huhu… i dont know how it is in their position becos honestly i never felt those hardships and problems regarding relationships..i can be open-minded, sure but of course that isnt enough.. it can never be close to how it really feels, how that reality is… it pains me to see them like that… to hear them being like that and NOT hearing anything from them at all.. i try not to be so affected but i cant help it.. they’re both my friends.. i hate seeing ANY of my friends in trouble, hurt or hardship in any way.. i wish the best of luck to them… i’m just here if you need me..i know you know that…
---- with myself, i’m worried… happy maybe? confused as well i guess… in short, mixed emotioned XD [geez.my words] there are times when i feel sooo happy… sooo lucky… sooo… :] though i’m not sure if thats what i truly feel..what if its just a sudden sensation..? what should i do? gaaah. a lot of moments i know i’m happy… but theres also a lot of times of those moments [usually most of those moments] i know i’m hurt. wishing the best for the other, thats TRUE LOVE according to our Philosophy of Man subject.. i want the other to be happy and with me, the other wont reach it.. your doing your best and i understand the place we’re in.. but really, is it me? or are you just doing it for me?..because we’re like this..? ---
sorry to my physics professor.. Mr. Rigor… i wasnt able to give you any wallpaper which you asked from me.. sorry sir. T.T ---------- thanks to abby, my good good friend, i'm updating my LJ now :D ...