how is it called a sin?

Jul 16, 2009 21:57

hihihhihi just clean up my lappie and found my so long time haven't read fanfic lolz
enjoy guys ^^

Length : one-shoot
Beta reader : yeriyoochun@TVXQindo
Current Music : Rainy Night- JunSu Kim



Love is blind, everybody knows how does it feel to be one. Truly, I wanna feel love like the other does, at normal term… I don’t know why, but as time goes by, I only feel love toward a girl. And the only one guy who could make me fall in love is JunSu. Knowing that impossibility, I tried to sweep that feeling and find another love. I try it hardly, but it’s rarely finding me shouting ‘Cool!’ to one of basketball players in my University. Feels like my heart is beating out faster to see that guy running & dribbling with the ball in his hand. Thinking about to know him better, scared me. The feeling of being hurt coz I don’t wanna feel that painful taste for being rejected again. However, since he threw his angelic smile, I know it couldn’t be big problem to greet him.

Two month has passed, and we knew each other quite well. All of a sudden, he asked me a shocking question, “does love for the same gender is a sin?”
I remembered lots of yaoi fan fiction, which I had read. Naturally, I told him, “Love ain’t sin, although in the same gender.”

He smiled; I could feel he is falling in love with someone right now. Whenever I see his face a bit carefully, He is not handsome at all but what I can find are beautiful big eyes, perfect angelic smile and that cherish lips which seducing me a lot.

“Do you know YooChun?” he licked his lips, avoided his nervous. I smiled, “That nice guy. Suits you,” replied me, teasing him.

In a second, I felt cold struck in my mind; my brain and the tears…Aghh,….I want to hold back my tears. Please…I do not want he saw me crying…

Blurry…I just can see everything blurry.

“Thanks,” he said. “But…”

I couldn’t face him anymore. I looked to the other way, pretending I was enjoying the view.

“EunChan, he had someone,”

“He?”

“Refers to YooChun. He has JaeJoong…”

I sighed, now I barely facing him. My tears just dried. “Oh, I don’t think of it. I often see YunHo dating JaeJoong, like yesterday when I saw them at the park near the beach.”

I find he glanced to our empty schoolyard. And few second latter, he said, “YooChun?” with an anxious feeling.

“JunSu, have you told him that you adore him?”

JunSu shoked his head.

“Try it. You won’t regret after you did it.”

“The risk…I’m too scared with the risk…” he stopped my word.

I smiled, “Risk always exists in everything. Whether he accept you or not, it will be a risk too”

“You are so mean, EunChan,”

“I just…” silent, I just realized bout all of the things which had happened on me. I realized that I was scared for that risk too. Just like JunSu himself.

“Hey,” I poked JunSu’s nose, “Do you wanna know about one of my secrets?”

“We have been a very best friend, EunChan!”

I smiled, “I loved YooChun and wanted him badly.”

JunSu shown his frozen face, “It couldn’t be…”

“So?”

JunSu stood and took his breath. He looked like prepared something. And when I took my book, he shouted with his pitch tone, “Park YooChun!!!!”

I saw YooChun turned his body to JunSu’s place.

“Saranghamnida!!!” JunSu continued with his blushing face.

My tears rolled down. It hurt me badly when YooChun welcomed JunSu on his warm arm.

I know..it could be hurt…seeing junsu who had been my crush been hugged by another guy.
but…come on, I need to wake up and face my dreams…
We need to move on with our life, don’t you?
And today, I glad to learn so much…
Thanks JunSu…thanks YooChun…
I hope YooSu will be eternal…

=END=

f : how is it called a sin?, c : fanfiction, t : one-shoot, g : drama

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