still not accepting it... (why ryopi?)
I still can't accept the fact both of you have leave the group, i would like to understand your reason but its just not acceptable, Ryo u have manage to survive within 2 group for 8 years but why now?, Now that News and K8 activities are really not in conflict since News have no activities recently, now that its even rare of News to be together in fact it takes months of waiting for News to be together unlike before and yet ur reason are, ur conflict of schedules its very contradicting. I can still remember ur past interview when u were ask to choose between two groups, i was sooo proud and happy when u answered that either group is irreplaceable that you don't want to lose any of them and yet you left with a very unjustified reason and that is what is more painful as if u have lied when you said that, in every concert u keep on asking to continue support the 6nin News coz your going to make this group more stronger and bigger but now i can't even digest that.. Pi your actually the reason i got to know News and Love them, you have brought me lots of wonderful things most specially a very wonderful family(my nyusu.ph family), as much as i want to take in the reason you have given still its to painful to accept it, among all the member it was you who have literally promised and stated not to leave the group cause you know how it feels to lose a member and News is your home that you can comeback every end of your solo work. your the one who mostly stated to make News well known not only in Japan but internationally, and what worst is that you always keep on promising that you will never betray us, but all of your promises where broken. I have so much trust and faith on you to stand on those promises even with all the rumors about you going solo few years ago, so why now? why after you made us anticipate, believe, trusted, and waited patiently, why can't you even give us a valid and more acceptable reason. on ur last concert you shouted to the fans to continue support and wait for your next project all together, is that just a sugar coated words to make the fans happy? really Pi you have crashed a lot of trust because of this, i honestly want to understand you and i know how big ur dream is but leaving News without even explaining and hint to ur fans is frustrating...
i know i sound like a bitch for writing all this but i just want to write all this negative feeling i have in my heart to be able to learn accepting the decision of ryopi, i may not understand fully the reason they have give but i know one for sure, they both want to grow as a performer in their own way and sadly its not with News. now that its all official i think we can't do anything to change it but to accept and hopefully someday to understand the reasons but for now let me dwell with this pain. i'm not saying i hate ryo and pi coz of this its rather frustrating not understanding it completely, and of course the feeling of betrayal for i have believe and trusted their promises and words. because those words are my only hope whenever News don't have activities for so long, those words make me wait patiently, i held on to those words so much that its more painful that now is the same reason i feel this intoxicating sadness... but ryo is ryo and pi is still pi so i can still say that i will continue to support them with the path they choose, though for now i still can't look to any of their pictures since its still very painful but i know in my heart the love is still there and its not gonna go, most specially for pi since i awe him the joy of being a fangirl for 6 long years, and i never regret knowing,loving and supporting them thats for sure.
for the new NewS kei-chan,shige,tego, and massu i know your stronger than before, you have experienced a lot walking into this path of ur career, u have grown to a a very wonderful and talented people so i know with the four of you, you can continue the legacy of the elite News that we all know and loved, that ur going to make this group even bigger and strong as ur former members dreamed of this group to be. now without the shadows of ur pillars, you can shine more and show more of ur talents, and i would like you to know that News is not only News because of yamapi nor ryo but its a group with such talented people who can stand with anything and everything...its going to be a big challenge for you to continue losing another two members but even the member have lessen i can rest assured you the the love and support of ur fans will never lessen coz no matter wat News is always News for all of us. maybe for other fans you will always be a 6nin group but for me you will always 8nin News, i have followed you guys way to long and maybe that's the reason why its so painful and hard to accept but like before when u lost uchi and kusano i will come and accept the fact about it, i just need a little more time...
To Kei,Shige,Tego, and Massu we will all be rooting on you, we know like us ur also in pain on this happenings but accepted it with an understanding heart..i'm gonna look forward for more for you and pray to keep u stronger and happier to this new path ur going to take...gambatte!!
to Ryo, with this path i hope to see more of you with K8 and more dramas, and see you grow even bigger in ur career, and hopefully to see u with lesser eye bags and gain a little more weight... stay happy with ur K8 brothers and please visit News once in a while,it will take time for me to look into ur sexy osakan picture again but one thing is for sure i dnt hate you and i will continue to support u, and will always see you as Nishikido Ryo of NEWS and K8..
To Yamapi, you will always be my one and only Ichiban that is an fact that will never change, after all the pain and betrayal i feel somehow i know this path will come someday its just i didn't expect to be this soon, i know you really loved and treasured News its just the pain that talking within me so i felt those feelings. Pi your such a wonderful and talented performer may it acting,singing, or dancing and i know you'll go places coz of this talents...and u've always says u want to be a BIG star and perform in different stage in the world, now is the chance so please strive even more, i know u still have many things to offer into the world, show us that its worthy leaving News so you can achieve it...and i know even your going solo in ur heart u bring along all the members with u, that all ur doing is still connected to your Beloved News that in ur heart u will continue and always the Yamashita Tomohisa of NEWS forever..
NewS with kei-shige,tego,massu,ryo, and pi together with all ur fans in the world will always and forever connect by heart, and our stars will always meet into the vast sky...like the word of ur songs:
"Even if we grew apart, our hearts remain connected as one
I’ll always be next to you, I promise you
- SHARE
and:
"Why do my tears spill over?
During the times when I can't say the words
In front of my eyes are my dreams
Dreams that nobody knows about yet
We have to keep being strong, don't we?
The path which we should continue down
Yes, we ought to decide on that path ourselves
I love you, without turning my eyes away I will be able to say that
-Dreams-
to all the fans, regardless of the length of our fandom time all of us have love this boys so now they have decided the they wanted to take, lets all try to accept it and never stop supporting them, be it the 4nin News or Ryo w/ K8 or Pi as solo artist, they are the same talented boys we have love and supported and that will never change...this is the path they think they need to take for them to be able to grow as an performer its going to be hard to get to use seeing news as a 4nin group but eventually we will see not the number of the group but the capability of this group...hating pi and ryo for all of this is actually pretty useless since its already been decided and we cant do anything to change that, the four remaining members have accepted it so i think we should do the same but i suggest to dwell with the pain we still feel now so we can face and support them with a smile and more accepting heart...and i know no matter wat happens NEWS is always NEWS with 6nin for us.... zutto... eine...
P.S.
this is just my own feelings that i needed to bring out...for those who are offended by this gomenasai...