My life is weird
I havent updated in a while so i figured i would.
Most recent things.
Homecoming on saturday night. Honestly one of the best nites of my life. It rocked.
Sunday me and syd sat home watching scarey movies all day. i was scared SHITLESS. i hate scarey movies. && it made me have a bad dream.
But ya...
Today im just not in a good mood. I feel like i wanna cry every five seconds and its so stupid but idk..
Ive skipped therapy too many times. I need to go this friday. Im a mess.
I smoked last wednesday or something..i shouldnt have done that.
But ya, today. idk.
First i got upset cuz i was tlaking to kevin about my tatoo and told him he should get one..in a completely nonthreatneing way..and he said he didnt want one which was fine with me. then after we were walking back from Cooke's class kevin said he was goin to get an oblivion one. Which made me upset. cause he was joking yea, but when we talk hes always playing a game. so either he asks to call me back later or i get tired of him not talking and just get off the phone. So it set me off that he would even joke that a game was more important than me, cause you know i have security issues. He knows that, everyone knows that. and idk. ive just been sad since then. its stupid and my brain knows that but my heart doesnt care.
and he keeps buggin me to tlak to hima nd i want to but he wouldnt understand. he DOESNT understand me or my feelings. he doesnt know what its like to go through this so whyy bother telling him. ill get over it soon enough and he wont ask about it again. thats the way it goes so imnot gonna bother. ill snap outa it eventually.
Most recent things.
Homecoming on saturday night. Honestly one of the best nites of my life. It rocked.
Sunday me and syd sat home watching scarey movies all day. i was scared SHITLESS. i hate scarey movies. && it made me have a bad dream.
But ya...
Today im just not in a good mood. I feel like i wanna cry every five seconds and its so stupid but idk..
Ive skipped therapy too many times. I need to go this friday. Im a mess.
I smoked last wednesday or something..i shouldnt have done that.
But ya, today. idk.
First i got upset cuz i was tlaking to kevin about my tatoo and told him he should get one..in a completely nonthreatneing way..and he said he didnt want one which was fine with me. then after we were walking back from Cooke's class kevin said he was goin to get an oblivion one. Which made me upset. cause he was joking yea, but when we talk hes always playing a game. so either he asks to call me back later or i get tired of him not talking and just get off the phone. So it set me off that he would even joke that a game was more important than me, cause you know i have security issues. He knows that, everyone knows that. and idk. ive just been sad since then. its stupid and my brain knows that but my heart doesnt care.
and he keeps buggin me to tlak to hima nd i want to but he wouldnt understand. he DOESNT understand me or my feelings. he doesnt know what its like to go through this so whyy bother telling him. ill get over it soon enough and he wont ask about it again. thats the way it goes so imnot gonna bother. ill snap outa it eventually.