Sisyphean
What makes people fall apart?
I find myself asking this question more and more often. On a less related note, congratulations to Allison on her recent engagement to Jamison, I know you two will find happiness and wish you the best of luck out west.
But yeah, what is it that makes that space between people grow? There's time, distance, stress, being busy, other people filling that space perhaps...but as much as I fight and struggle to close the distance that opens up between myself and people from my past, there are always things getting in the way. Now I'm wondering, like I have before just after my move to Virginia, am I the sort of person who's just okay losing touch with people? Is my much prized independence getting in the way of my keeping up with those that are far away.
It seems there are some people in life I am not able to lose track of no matter how much life pulls me in other directions. In pulling out storage drawers I was hoping to find photos of one particular person tonight, but instead I found someone else from my past. I'd forgotten about them, and about the good times they captured, about how handsome he looked back then. But I hear less and less from these people these days, and I'm sadly becoming accustomed to it. I feel like Sisyphus and no matter what I try or how much I'd rather it not happen, things end up this way. Looking at these pictures makes me cry, remember the good times and I can't help but think "what happened to us? how did we end up this way?" I wonder if it is a part of my Analytical nature that is holding me back, never allowing me to reach the precipice of a meaningful relationship.
"Once they have decided in favour of a person, Analytical Thinkers are loyal and reliable partners. However, one cannot expect romance and effusive expressions of feelings from them"
Why does this seem so true? I've always said, in a relationship I don't NEED another person, it's more of a want. I know I'd be alright without them, but stars shine brighter and birds sing louder and the sunshine warms me more when they're there. It more a feeling of two people fitting well together than that I must have them with me, and I like that about myself. But I think this also makes it easier for me to be apart from them, while at the same time makes it difficult to forget. I didn't ever need someone, but I miss them when they're gone. I never had to have someone, but I miss them being there.
I find myself asking this question more and more often. On a less related note, congratulations to Allison on her recent engagement to Jamison, I know you two will find happiness and wish you the best of luck out west.
But yeah, what is it that makes that space between people grow? There's time, distance, stress, being busy, other people filling that space perhaps...but as much as I fight and struggle to close the distance that opens up between myself and people from my past, there are always things getting in the way. Now I'm wondering, like I have before just after my move to Virginia, am I the sort of person who's just okay losing touch with people? Is my much prized independence getting in the way of my keeping up with those that are far away.
It seems there are some people in life I am not able to lose track of no matter how much life pulls me in other directions. In pulling out storage drawers I was hoping to find photos of one particular person tonight, but instead I found someone else from my past. I'd forgotten about them, and about the good times they captured, about how handsome he looked back then. But I hear less and less from these people these days, and I'm sadly becoming accustomed to it. I feel like Sisyphus and no matter what I try or how much I'd rather it not happen, things end up this way. Looking at these pictures makes me cry, remember the good times and I can't help but think "what happened to us? how did we end up this way?" I wonder if it is a part of my Analytical nature that is holding me back, never allowing me to reach the precipice of a meaningful relationship.
"Once they have decided in favour of a person, Analytical Thinkers are loyal and reliable partners. However, one cannot expect romance and effusive expressions of feelings from them"
Why does this seem so true? I've always said, in a relationship I don't NEED another person, it's more of a want. I know I'd be alright without them, but stars shine brighter and birds sing louder and the sunshine warms me more when they're there. It more a feeling of two people fitting well together than that I must have them with me, and I like that about myself. But I think this also makes it easier for me to be apart from them, while at the same time makes it difficult to forget. I didn't ever need someone, but I miss them when they're gone. I never had to have someone, but I miss them being there.