Whooo COLLEGE.
You are reading the livejournal of a soon to be freshman at Carnegie Mellon University. To be more specific, I am an Information Systems Major in Carnegie Mellon's class of 2010! I"m going to be a computer dork for life, WHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
The first few days after I found out were pure bliss. I've been wanting to go here forever, all my hard work in high school has paid off. It's so COOL! I still am in awe as to how on EARTH this happened. But suddenly, a strange sadness is sweeping over me. Just the typical leaving home, fear of change sadness. It's just that, there's no uncertainty anymore. It's official. I'm leaving home. I'm going to Pittsburgh. I won't magically be going to the same college as my friends because we're all being pulled in separate directions.
I guess it just really hit me this morning when I was at Starbucks with Broz, and I asked him whether he'd applied to the University of Pittsburgh yet. When he replied that he probably wasn't going to and didn't really want to go there, it just hit me like a ton of bricks. I"m going to college. I'm going to be on my own without Broz. Without Kyle. Without the people who mean the world to me. But seriously guys, what am I going to do without Broz? We were separated for a good month this time, and I was an absolute wreck without him. I just... the idea of not being his favorite girl, kills me. Haha, his favorite girl. That's a funny way to put it. It just rips me apart as to how practical he is. He can deal with it. He realizes that relationships end and people are separated by distance and circumstances. I can't. I like to sit around and daydream about marrying him and making cute Indo-Polish babies. It's not going to happen. Pittsburgh is just so far away. It seems so far away. God damn it, I'm still a freshman in high school. This can NOT be happening. How are you supposed to train yourself NOT to love someone? How can parting ways be less painful?
If you guys are really my friends, you'd college stalk me to Pittsburgh. doooo it!!!!
The first few days after I found out were pure bliss. I've been wanting to go here forever, all my hard work in high school has paid off. It's so COOL! I still am in awe as to how on EARTH this happened. But suddenly, a strange sadness is sweeping over me. Just the typical leaving home, fear of change sadness. It's just that, there's no uncertainty anymore. It's official. I'm leaving home. I'm going to Pittsburgh. I won't magically be going to the same college as my friends because we're all being pulled in separate directions.
I guess it just really hit me this morning when I was at Starbucks with Broz, and I asked him whether he'd applied to the University of Pittsburgh yet. When he replied that he probably wasn't going to and didn't really want to go there, it just hit me like a ton of bricks. I"m going to college. I'm going to be on my own without Broz. Without Kyle. Without the people who mean the world to me. But seriously guys, what am I going to do without Broz? We were separated for a good month this time, and I was an absolute wreck without him. I just... the idea of not being his favorite girl, kills me. Haha, his favorite girl. That's a funny way to put it. It just rips me apart as to how practical he is. He can deal with it. He realizes that relationships end and people are separated by distance and circumstances. I can't. I like to sit around and daydream about marrying him and making cute Indo-Polish babies. It's not going to happen. Pittsburgh is just so far away. It seems so far away. God damn it, I'm still a freshman in high school. This can NOT be happening. How are you supposed to train yourself NOT to love someone? How can parting ways be less painful?
If you guys are really my friends, you'd college stalk me to Pittsburgh. doooo it!!!!