So right... Cryptic entry ahead.

[yahtzeepie]

Governor's School is about to end... Mixed feelings. Had a fabulous starbucks date with Sean. I love that kid to death. Created mischief with the girls. Girls are stupid though. I don't get how they find new ways to screw themselves over repeatedly. Power hungry bastards scare the crap out of me. Correction, power hungry manipulative bastards scare the crap out of me. I don't understand how life can be entirely goal-oriented to some people. They set their sights on things, and live for accomplishing and creating new goals. There's no chill. I'm so confused. I hate sunglasses. I fucking hate sunglasses. The dark kind that doesn't allow you to see what's on the other side but still allows you to see a trace of an eye or the lifting of an eyebrow. I hate hats. I hate hiding. I hate people who can't take the blame.
I love my girlfriends though. Will miss them. Will miss Sean. Will miss hot hot Eric. Will miss Jesus Christ/ Logan Elliott. Will miss Polish Trevor. Will miss the Joes. Fuck it, I'll miss Matt as well, I fucking hate to admit it. I don't want to stay here though, but I don't want to come home. When I come home it'll practically be August. Then senior year. Then college. Life will just fly by. I don't want it to. I wish things were different.
Is the point of life really to be as good at everything as you possibly can be? God I get so scared sometimes. Scared of myself. Scared of people. Obsessive people scare me so much. Manipulative people cause me to see what I never saw before about myself. I'm so weak and stupid.
Fucking Coldplay. Gets me every time. I don't know what to do with myself.