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Being awake late always makes me depressed. Especially when I'm listening to Coldplay.
It always gives me time to think about everything going wrong when so much is going right. It's just that there are so many relationships that I wish I could set right, so many people I wish I saw more. I have so many regrets sometimes. I miss feeling attractive. Not attractive in the physical sense (because baby I'm hot stuff ;-)), but in the sense where someone could talk to me for hours and just find me absolutely adorable. He used to find me absolutely adorable and just be smitten by every goofy thing I said. Now it's all gotten old. I feel like a burden. I feel like a routine to those closest to me. All my little quirks and stupidly cute tendencies have gotten old and utterly predictable to the point I'm boring. I wish I was less obnoxiously in your face. I miss that look in peoples' eyes.
On a lighter note, I LOVE michelle and starbucks.
It always gives me time to think about everything going wrong when so much is going right. It's just that there are so many relationships that I wish I could set right, so many people I wish I saw more. I have so many regrets sometimes. I miss feeling attractive. Not attractive in the physical sense (because baby I'm hot stuff ;-)), but in the sense where someone could talk to me for hours and just find me absolutely adorable. He used to find me absolutely adorable and just be smitten by every goofy thing I said. Now it's all gotten old. I feel like a burden. I feel like a routine to those closest to me. All my little quirks and stupidly cute tendencies have gotten old and utterly predictable to the point I'm boring. I wish I was less obnoxiously in your face. I miss that look in peoples' eyes.
On a lighter note, I LOVE michelle and starbucks.