to my friends.. what you mean to me.

[yah_senbest]

again, and again,
ever since my childhood,
i am put in this spot.

not that i'm complaining,
but i just wonder,
why?

is it my own self,
that leads me into this spot?
is it what i did?
is it how i treat my friends?

i'm very much a person with a lot of preferences,
a person with a strong sense of impression,
a person that simply chooses,
rather than being chosen.

i'm not too fond of being a person with smooth sweet words,
i'd rather be a person of conviction.
but i guess i'm not convincing enough,
if i'm put in this spot again, and again..
time after time.

i have a quite extreme mood-swings,
and my friends have had to endure that a lot, i think
but lending my shoulders and ears,
i guess i can say that that's what i could do,
at the very least.
and so that's what i did.

what are friends?
what are close friends?
how do we become best friends?
why is there the term 'old friends'?

my answers, i will keep to myself.
but to my friends, just know that
i am a person that easily makes acquaintances,
but you are my friends, really.