Dear Livejournal,
Blah...just, blah, blah, blah...
Yep. Cuz that's all I have to say...or may as well be. It's kinda funny, taking abnormal psych...it's getting deeper...and it's getting TO me. It's weird to be able to take in all this information and then go analyze yourself...you kinda see why you are the way you are, why you feel how you feel, or how you beahve the way you behave. But it sucks because it's like the answer is right there in front of you...for EVERYTHING...but it just seems so impossible for you to even apply to real life. Like, it all makes so much sense, but you just don't believe it'd work for you...because everybody's not the same. It's like I'm poisoned, the medicine that'll cure me is right there in front of me, but I refuse to take it, just cuz I don't think it'll work.
More than that, it'll take too much time, and too much effort, and too much of everything that I don't even have enough of to begin with. And because Remie just pointed this out to me, I must make clear, that yes, I do realize there are flaws to psychology. It's not a dead on science, and I assure you my professor makes sure that we know, that there isn't always an answer, because there just isn't. Maybe I can't disregard everything I learned, because it's good. Like, for instance...Nobody can make you *feel* a certain way. It is you who makes you feel a way about a person or situation because you pick out certain things, and you blow those things a bit out of proportion and let them get to you. You let things get to you....but the problem with me KNOWING this, I realize this, and I can believe this, I still don't know how to control the way I feel about certain situations, certain people, certain things. I dunno. Ha.
Yep. Ha, I'm deep, eh? Maybe a little bit too much? Oh well...it's how I am.
I just don't really feel good. I need to learn how to feel good, about everything. About myself, my relationship, my job, school, my life....even if just a little better. I just don't feel very liked right now...let's just say that. I feel very disliked, and I kind of feel weird in my own body. I'm just trying to think of an answer I guess...how do I just Deal With IT?
Yep. Cuz that's all I have to say...or may as well be. It's kinda funny, taking abnormal psych...it's getting deeper...and it's getting TO me. It's weird to be able to take in all this information and then go analyze yourself...you kinda see why you are the way you are, why you feel how you feel, or how you beahve the way you behave. But it sucks because it's like the answer is right there in front of you...for EVERYTHING...but it just seems so impossible for you to even apply to real life. Like, it all makes so much sense, but you just don't believe it'd work for you...because everybody's not the same. It's like I'm poisoned, the medicine that'll cure me is right there in front of me, but I refuse to take it, just cuz I don't think it'll work.
More than that, it'll take too much time, and too much effort, and too much of everything that I don't even have enough of to begin with. And because Remie just pointed this out to me, I must make clear, that yes, I do realize there are flaws to psychology. It's not a dead on science, and I assure you my professor makes sure that we know, that there isn't always an answer, because there just isn't. Maybe I can't disregard everything I learned, because it's good. Like, for instance...Nobody can make you *feel* a certain way. It is you who makes you feel a way about a person or situation because you pick out certain things, and you blow those things a bit out of proportion and let them get to you. You let things get to you....but the problem with me KNOWING this, I realize this, and I can believe this, I still don't know how to control the way I feel about certain situations, certain people, certain things. I dunno. Ha.
Yep. Ha, I'm deep, eh? Maybe a little bit too much? Oh well...it's how I am.
I just don't really feel good. I need to learn how to feel good, about everything. About myself, my relationship, my job, school, my life....even if just a little better. I just don't feel very liked right now...let's just say that. I feel very disliked, and I kind of feel weird in my own body. I'm just trying to think of an answer I guess...how do I just Deal With IT?