I've been....
I was so proud of myself lately, until last night. I haven't cried for 2 weeks but last night at work I broke down. As I was waiting for all my counts to get down by the managers, I was browsing through my phone and I found a voice memo that Stephen and I recorded during the summer of last year. Once I heard his voice, I broke down and couldn't hold it in. So there I was, sitting at work, crying like a baby. It was a lot of crying because I haven't in 2 weeks. Hearing his voice made me remember all the times we've spent together. On the memo it said, "Tell me you love me...(from me)" and he said "I'll love you forever." And I said "you promise?" and he said "as long as my name is Stephen...unless I'm under the witness protection program.." Ugh....ya that soon ended.
What was I expecting from him? Really? Did I really expect us to be together forever? The truth is...Yes, yes I did. I did want us to be together forever. I wanted him to be the prince that turned into a frog. I wanted him to save me from the fire dragon. I wanted it all. But I can't. And that's okay. Because I know what I want, and I will do what it takes to get it.
What I look for in a guy. (honestly)
1. Nice hair.... I like guys with medium cut...not too short like the military....but not too long either...
2. Nice teeth....If you have gross brown teeth...eww...and they have to be relitively straight too...
3. Tall...I like them to be taller than me with heels on...
4. FUNNY....Sometimes none of those things matter....if you can make me laugh...you're okay in my book!
5. A gentleman... I'm not asking for you to open my car door or anything like that...but don't treat me like SHIT in front of your friends
6. Healty... I like a guy who knows how to take care of his body....i don't like muscel men...but i don't like bean polls either.
7. knows his shit....i like guys who know about cars, and sports...nuff said
8. I HATE SMOKERS...no exceptions
9. Personality...I can't go out with a dud...You have to be able to hold a conversation with my friends, family and especially me.
10. umm i dont know what else.
i'm not sure why i wrote all that crap down. okay bye...
Umm I don't know what else!
What was I expecting from him? Really? Did I really expect us to be together forever? The truth is...Yes, yes I did. I did want us to be together forever. I wanted him to be the prince that turned into a frog. I wanted him to save me from the fire dragon. I wanted it all. But I can't. And that's okay. Because I know what I want, and I will do what it takes to get it.
What I look for in a guy. (honestly)
1. Nice hair.... I like guys with medium cut...not too short like the military....but not too long either...
2. Nice teeth....If you have gross brown teeth...eww...and they have to be relitively straight too...
3. Tall...I like them to be taller than me with heels on...
4. FUNNY....Sometimes none of those things matter....if you can make me laugh...you're okay in my book!
5. A gentleman... I'm not asking for you to open my car door or anything like that...but don't treat me like SHIT in front of your friends
6. Healty... I like a guy who knows how to take care of his body....i don't like muscel men...but i don't like bean polls either.
7. knows his shit....i like guys who know about cars, and sports...nuff said
8. I HATE SMOKERS...no exceptions
9. Personality...I can't go out with a dud...You have to be able to hold a conversation with my friends, family and especially me.
10. umm i dont know what else.
i'm not sure why i wrote all that crap down. okay bye...
Umm I don't know what else!