Stressed cos I was told not to be stressed.. (´ﾟωﾟ｀)
So I am supposed to be doing an internship the end of this year, before I graduate..
And one of my lecturer told me that I can do a research with him as a replacement for internship, cos I haven't got any jobs from the companies that I applied to.. Everything sounds great! So I didn't book a flight home, and was planning to stay in Melbourne for the holiday.
But then I received an email, saying that the department is going to change the policy, and I probably won't be able to replace internship with a research...
I was like "... WHAT THE HECK!?!?!?!" I was told to talk to one of the higher up in my department.. He said it hasn't been decided yet so I should come back and ask him again next week. What annoys me is that he lied, saying that it's never okay to take research as internship. I'm 100% sure it was okay! I have friends who have done that before WTH!! That person, he always lies when he's wrong, so that we cannot take any counterattack against him. JERK!!!
That means I need to look for a company that's willing to take me this summer as soon as I can, or go back to my country and find a job there.. Which I don't really want to.. Cos I have been planning to stay here during the holiday! And now my plan is all ruined!! Because of those stupid people who wants to change the policy!! Don't they realize how hard it is for international student to get a job here??!! Anyway I've started to look for a job again..
But I actually don't really mind going back, cos a part of me wants to go back anyway.. I miss the food, my pet, my family and everything there. Even though I prefer to stay here cos I've bought a ticket for Ore Ore screening during the holiday!! Yep.. my plan for the holiday is totally ruined thanks to those bunch of stupid lecturers!! But I think I'm alright with anything, as long as I can get a job.
Then I called my mom, telling her the situation.. But then one sentence from her, that made me so stressed now.. She told me "don't be stressed over it," which supposed to cheer me up! But for me, when people tell me not to be stressed, I tend to do the opposite, cos I think, so that means I was supposed to be stressed in this situation and why I am not actually stressed. That makes me realize how bad the situation is and now I'm stressed.. （メ▼▼） I know my mom didn't mean to do that, and I'm not blaming her at all.. but seriously.. it makes me can't concentrate to study for my next exam!! I really need to do something to make my mind drift away from this feeling..
I hope I can get a good news next week, or get a job here in Melbourne asap!! If I have to, I will try to call those companies and beg them!!! I really need the job desperately!!! And F**K YOU STUPID DEPARTMENT HEAD!!!! MAY YOU BE CURSED BY THE WHOLE INTERNATIONAL STUDENTS!!!!
And one of my lecturer told me that I can do a research with him as a replacement for internship, cos I haven't got any jobs from the companies that I applied to.. Everything sounds great! So I didn't book a flight home, and was planning to stay in Melbourne for the holiday.
But then I received an email, saying that the department is going to change the policy, and I probably won't be able to replace internship with a research...
I was like "... WHAT THE HECK!?!?!?!" I was told to talk to one of the higher up in my department.. He said it hasn't been decided yet so I should come back and ask him again next week. What annoys me is that he lied, saying that it's never okay to take research as internship. I'm 100% sure it was okay! I have friends who have done that before WTH!! That person, he always lies when he's wrong, so that we cannot take any counterattack against him. JERK!!!
That means I need to look for a company that's willing to take me this summer as soon as I can, or go back to my country and find a job there.. Which I don't really want to.. Cos I have been planning to stay here during the holiday! And now my plan is all ruined!! Because of those stupid people who wants to change the policy!! Don't they realize how hard it is for international student to get a job here??!! Anyway I've started to look for a job again..
But I actually don't really mind going back, cos a part of me wants to go back anyway.. I miss the food, my pet, my family and everything there. Even though I prefer to stay here cos I've bought a ticket for Ore Ore screening during the holiday!! Yep.. my plan for the holiday is totally ruined thanks to those bunch of stupid lecturers!! But I think I'm alright with anything, as long as I can get a job.
Then I called my mom, telling her the situation.. But then one sentence from her, that made me so stressed now.. She told me "don't be stressed over it," which supposed to cheer me up! But for me, when people tell me not to be stressed, I tend to do the opposite, cos I think, so that means I was supposed to be stressed in this situation and why I am not actually stressed. That makes me realize how bad the situation is and now I'm stressed.. （メ▼▼） I know my mom didn't mean to do that, and I'm not blaming her at all.. but seriously.. it makes me can't concentrate to study for my next exam!! I really need to do something to make my mind drift away from this feeling..
I hope I can get a good news next week, or get a job here in Melbourne asap!! If I have to, I will try to call those companies and beg them!!! I really need the job desperately!!! And F**K YOU STUPID DEPARTMENT HEAD!!!! MAY YOU BE CURSED BY THE WHOLE INTERNATIONAL STUDENTS!!!!