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So...i came home tonight! I'm so lonley. :( Well...Tommorow night...i'm going out with nick, shelley and collin!!! that is going to be awesome!!! Maybe howie will be there... ;) Tonight at work was interesting...I got pulled over to Mck-b for 2 hours. We had to put a girl in 4 point.(which means...we had to restrain her to the bed so she couldn't move at all.) Nick was called over...because it was a behaviroal emergency. We also had to search 3 patients room's. FUN,FUN! lol. Nick confuses me so much. I hate being lead on...and he does it soo much. The RN i worked with tonight...asked eme if Nick and i had gone out on a date yet. I responded...ONLY IN MY DREAMS! lol. She laughed and said aww...i think you guys would make a cute couple! lol :) I do 2...But i'm not the kind of girl he wants right now. I'm a NICE girl...the kind you bring home to you're mom! lol. :) As soon as i came into work...my fucking Head nurse comes up to me and says "you're a sweet girl...you shouldnt be hanging out with nick...he's a bad influence on you!!!" What the hell? That made me so mad!!! I told Nick and he laughed so hard! Shelley was like what a bitch. haha. I love my co-workers. Joey turned 21 today. happy birthday joe-joe! 2 bad i had to work...i really needed to have fun tonight. We're having karooke tomorrow night...at the hospital! Hell yes! i can see Nick and i up there singing "like a virgin!" ahhahahahaa. O well I need to get out...and have some fun...i will tomorrow night. Work is going good...i really love my patients...and my coworkers. :) Sam has just been staring into my ward....not calling me...so that's good!! One of the patients on Mck-B was starting shit with me...and i was almost lost it. I just couldnt handle it.
I talked to one of my co-workers tonight about how i didnt drink for 2 years...and about billy. :( I miss him soooo much! I talked about him with Nick...the other day and i almost started crying. :( I cannot believe that it has been almost 3 years. I cannot believe it's been almost 3 years since...i was you know...I'm still in denial in a way....I hate to think about it...I hate it. My mom says i need to talk about it...and let it out...she says i need to start seeing Iris again...because i need to work on my issues. She helped me a lot after Billy's death...
I'm taking a semester off and i hate it. I hate it! Ugh...All i do is work! lol.
I'm really depressed...so...Im going to go cry myself to sleep. :(
I talked to one of my co-workers tonight about how i didnt drink for 2 years...and about billy. :( I miss him soooo much! I talked about him with Nick...the other day and i almost started crying. :( I cannot believe that it has been almost 3 years. I cannot believe it's been almost 3 years since...i was you know...I'm still in denial in a way....I hate to think about it...I hate it. My mom says i need to talk about it...and let it out...she says i need to start seeing Iris again...because i need to work on my issues. She helped me a lot after Billy's death...
I'm taking a semester off and i hate it. I hate it! Ugh...All i do is work! lol.
I'm really depressed...so...Im going to go cry myself to sleep. :(