The biggest mistake of my life is the time I wasted
Hey. I haven't frickin writ in this in effing forever!!
Well a lot of crap is going on in my life, but who doesn't have that? Well, I'm living the worst time of my life at this moment. I dont know what I think anoymore. If I care. If I'm even trying my hardest.
Well, my mom left my stepdad "high and dry" as they say...whatever the hell that means. I know ppl must think, O its just a divore blah blah. But they have no idea. Its so effing dramatic. I feel like I'm living in some soap opera. "The Days of My Life" lol Anyway
So my stepdad is staying in this motel he works at. Its a really nice place...for a motel. Its so sad. I miss him so much. He's the only true father in my life. I do have my real dad with me, but sometimes I wish I didnt. I know that sounds horrible, but hes so hurtful. He guilts me, and makes me feel like the worst person in the world. He makes me feel down and like I'm a horrible, using, manipulative person that uses him for money. But lets not get into that. So just about everyday I cry. I cry for having to suddenly move into this nasty effing apartment. Theres not enough room, no privacy, and it just looks gross. I cry for it feeling empty in the place without my stepdad. We were so close. I love him so much. We call each other, and its too soon to see each other. He doesnt wana cry.
I aslo have been slipping in my grades and in cheerleading. I feel like theres just no point in it anymore. Im just some loser who wont get into college, with a majorly f***** up family (which I dont tell every1 everything, cuz thats MY business) and I have like no money, no car, no job, yadda yadda....hmm...I gotta get one of those..so called jobs...lol
To top it off my 'best friend' Sam is total BBBBBBBBBBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (listen to that song, by OutKast..roses really smell like boo-boo....that one!)
Well, lets just say shes been (oo...phone call...)
ok
anyways
Lets just say shes been an immature, childish, lieing, backstabbing, gnarly BEOTCH!!
okok anyways so basically i no longer have her as my best friend, and she wasted 4 yrs of my life by being my friend. UGH!
well more happened, but im gonna go cuz
1. Im finding out MORE stuff
2. Im tired
3. I think that my life will officially suck cuz my mom just said something that made my heart stop...
bye
Well a lot of crap is going on in my life, but who doesn't have that? Well, I'm living the worst time of my life at this moment. I dont know what I think anoymore. If I care. If I'm even trying my hardest.
Well, my mom left my stepdad "high and dry" as they say...whatever the hell that means. I know ppl must think, O its just a divore blah blah. But they have no idea. Its so effing dramatic. I feel like I'm living in some soap opera. "The Days of My Life" lol Anyway
So my stepdad is staying in this motel he works at. Its a really nice place...for a motel. Its so sad. I miss him so much. He's the only true father in my life. I do have my real dad with me, but sometimes I wish I didnt. I know that sounds horrible, but hes so hurtful. He guilts me, and makes me feel like the worst person in the world. He makes me feel down and like I'm a horrible, using, manipulative person that uses him for money. But lets not get into that. So just about everyday I cry. I cry for having to suddenly move into this nasty effing apartment. Theres not enough room, no privacy, and it just looks gross. I cry for it feeling empty in the place without my stepdad. We were so close. I love him so much. We call each other, and its too soon to see each other. He doesnt wana cry.
I aslo have been slipping in my grades and in cheerleading. I feel like theres just no point in it anymore. Im just some loser who wont get into college, with a majorly f***** up family (which I dont tell every1 everything, cuz thats MY business) and I have like no money, no car, no job, yadda yadda....hmm...I gotta get one of those..so called jobs...lol
To top it off my 'best friend' Sam is total BBBBBBBBBBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (listen to that song, by OutKast..roses really smell like boo-boo....that one!)
Well, lets just say shes been (oo...phone call...)
ok
anyways
Lets just say shes been an immature, childish, lieing, backstabbing, gnarly BEOTCH!!
okok anyways so basically i no longer have her as my best friend, and she wasted 4 yrs of my life by being my friend. UGH!
well more happened, but im gonna go cuz
1. Im finding out MORE stuff
2. Im tired
3. I think that my life will officially suck cuz my mom just said something that made my heart stop...
bye