yeah. im sad.

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im so sick of the fair already. yesterday i went there with josh. we just mainly walked around and stuff. but i had a ton of fun with him. i feel like im starting to loosen up around him. im really shy when first hanging out or meeting people. i dont want them to think im some annoying girl. but yeah. so i had a ton of fun and that was cool. then i brought him home.. it was sad. i didnt want him to go. i wish i could have just said 'no , stay. please.' but that would have been silly.

today my mom woke me up early to let the dog out. like she couldnt do it herself. adn i decided to go to the fair with them afterall. jay was going so i said okay. we were there wayyyy too long. and it was dumb and stupid and i just sat there watching everyone go on rides. how fun. i did take jay on a few of the kiddie rides there for a while. yah. then i made my family leave. i dont feel good. saw adydan there and a few others, and he didnt feel good either. it was cool seeing him tho. yeah and im really really really burnt. and it sucks. and i dont want to work tomororw all day.
and julie quit i guess.. and thats frustrating.. bc i dont know why.. and john wants to talk to me about something that has to do with dan.. and im frustrated about that as well. i jsut dunno wut to do about this work thing.

im really stressed out right now. i just miss him. a lot.

goodnight