tarnation
Tonight i saw tarnation with georgia, jake, and robby. It was such an amazing movie, it just blows my mind. Im so tired now but i want to write. I missed georgia so much. We also went to hooters tonight, it was sweet. I got a raise yesterday, and that was pretty sweet also.
on my drive home tonight i got sad. Because i think i realized that i kind of lie to myself by having phony relationships. Why should i act like i like someone just to call them my friend, when we have absolutely nothing in common...maybe just knowing that it's easy to access them...but i faced the truth, that many people in my life are going to treat me like shit..and im going to try to cut that down as much as possible now...i dont want to be taken advantage of anymore. I have to stop putting out the effort and deal, because right now i feel like i would ratehr be lonely and occasionally in the company of gret friends..rather than hanging out with shitty people on all the spare time..its just more stressfull than it is relieving.
from now on, im not putting effort into a relationship unless the other person is equally as willing.
on my drive home tonight i got sad. Because i think i realized that i kind of lie to myself by having phony relationships. Why should i act like i like someone just to call them my friend, when we have absolutely nothing in common...maybe just knowing that it's easy to access them...but i faced the truth, that many people in my life are going to treat me like shit..and im going to try to cut that down as much as possible now...i dont want to be taken advantage of anymore. I have to stop putting out the effort and deal, because right now i feel like i would ratehr be lonely and occasionally in the company of gret friends..rather than hanging out with shitty people on all the spare time..its just more stressfull than it is relieving.
from now on, im not putting effort into a relationship unless the other person is equally as willing.