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[xytio]

where does life go now?

we've gotten through the prologue and the introduction...
and we are continuing on through the story-
on through the building suspense that eventually leads to the climax.
is there even a climax?
does everyone's life even have a climax?
if not, then screw life.
what's the point of living a pointless life?
but even if it does have a climax,
then what is life worth after that greatest moment?
all there is is the falling suspense which eventually leads to the conclusion........

and that book is done.

and if there is an afterlife then is it just another book?
minus the conclusion?

i don't know-
but i do know that life isn't just always LOVE or HATE.
i live in a fuzzy little gray area in between,
and i don't think that either one could satisfy this hunger
that hangs in the depths of me.
the only cure seems to be to dehumanize myself
and to become a hollow automaton shell.
what can i do besides be born-
do as much as i can in life-
be as good as i can so i am not rejected by God-
and die?

we'll just have to read the next chapter.