if you wanna see the future, go stare into a cloud

[xytio]

it's interesting how relationships can,
at one second,
make you feel like you are on the top of the world,
then just as fast shoot you down.

maybe i am just over analyzing it all,
maybe i should just not worry about it all
and be myself- which is harder than you think, mind you.

i tend to do that whenever i really care about someone,
i over analyze everything
and try to mold myself into someone i'm not.

i put myself into the position of not being needed,
of being taken for granted.

well, i am sick of letting myself slip into that position-
i think it's time i make a conscious effort to:
-be myself,
-not sacrifice my whole for someone else,
-not rely on someone else for happiness and affection,
and
-never apologize for my feelings.

besides, the right person won't take me for granted...
why am i talking about relationships,
that's all anyone ever freaking talks about on here?

how did i fall onto this boat?
oh yeah, i know why- i let myself fall for someone...