the sky is deeper than the dream

[xyousmellx]

jazz band was very awkward tonight, people that are usually overall happy people weren't. (that sort of through me up against a wall) ..being off the subject anyhow.... i've realized when things aren't half bad with your life, loved one's lives are shitty as ever...and the only thing that you can do for them is worry (or pray). i've been worried a lot lately....for more than just a few people. it scares me sometimes. i wish that i wrote more often because it makes me feel more clear on my feelings about things, sometimes it surprises me that it even comes out as a complete thought.

i always think about how great it will be when i get out of highschool because there will be "less drama" but you know, it'll truly remain the same, just in different aspects. i've learned to accept that and move on. maybe it'll come back around some day. who knows, i sure as hell don't. Now i have to go fill my emptiness with something dumb like video games, movies, or omework, or (my favorite) sleep.

don't let little things screw you up, save it for the big things.