hmm
So yesterday I got my ass beat horribly while i was training...My mouth was bleeding everywhere and i was super depressed on my performance. It made me not want to fight. Tonight was a lot better, probably because I was going against people more my weight and experience level. Monday I had to fight 6 3 minutes rounds with a fresh person each time, one a brown belt with a 2-0 professional record, one an all American wrestler, and some other people. Tonight was a lot better and I'm a lot more confident in my skills as a fighter. I'm still cutting weight, I was 140.5 this morning and i have to be under 136 by Friday, I'm not too worried.
But the real reason I'm even on this right now
I started looking through a CD i have of pictures back when i was dating Heather. I don't miss her. Im completely over her, but it made me realize what I want. I just want to have someone to hold and know that I'm the only person they are thinking of. Someone to hang around my house with and do absolutely nothing. But mostly someone who always wants to talk to me, always wants to see me, always wants to be with me. I have joey but we don't talk or hang out as much as we used to just because we both have decent jobs and I spend most of my time at the gym. But it still isn't the same. Theres always just something in a relationship that makes those things twice as special. I don't give two shits about sex, never have, and I don't think I ever will. I would just like to know that there is someone out there who is upset I don't call them at least once a day.
But the real reason I'm even on this right now
I started looking through a CD i have of pictures back when i was dating Heather. I don't miss her. Im completely over her, but it made me realize what I want. I just want to have someone to hold and know that I'm the only person they are thinking of. Someone to hang around my house with and do absolutely nothing. But mostly someone who always wants to talk to me, always wants to see me, always wants to be with me. I have joey but we don't talk or hang out as much as we used to just because we both have decent jobs and I spend most of my time at the gym. But it still isn't the same. Theres always just something in a relationship that makes those things twice as special. I don't give two shits about sex, never have, and I don't think I ever will. I would just like to know that there is someone out there who is upset I don't call them at least once a day.